” In 2012 I set out to make a Sustainable All female crew motion picture with an original soundtrack . ‘HandMadeToMakeADifference™ was one of my guiding methodologies along with ToyBoxTech™ Not quite a musical, but the soundtrack was literally ‘born’ with the screenplay + hand-made along with the production of the movie. I was very much aware that I was ‘composing’ + ‘designing’ along with screenplay-writing, directing, acting, rapping-singing+producing – so there’s def a ’21stCenturyGirl-rapper-rock-band‘ – aesthetic at work here – based on my methodologies in my book ‘The Declaration Of IndiePenDance™’ where I explore my film-making+music-making approach – I call it c.lili™ ‘s CynAesthetiX™ and it includes a variety of innovations cinematic+music aesthetics. As a young actress who’s taken the time to respect the history / HERstory of my craft – from the craftspersons’ perspective – I know that ‘innovation’ rests upon the past + is a bridge to the future.
Pushback came from several directions — on the all female crew idea – along with my non-conventional feminist – lgbtqia – interracial – climate- action subject matter — … I wasn’t planning to make a movie I’ve already seen – so it was a challenge!
With My Sisters – For My #Sisters : in my recent writings and explorations about feminism — I am finding it crucial for us to find out – not so much why men hurt women – but instead, why some women – hurt women –
including the fact that often, we women, hurt ourselves, it’s a vicious cycle – and by hurting our sisters, we are expressing our self hatred …
I explored this in my indie movie recently – but it was not until VERY recently that I fully understood the depth of how these incidents shape us from childhood, into our teenage years, school experiences and then –
importantly, as we enter the professional world and encounter the competitive forces from our sisters, which often lead women to do unspeakable things – things they write about and rail against as #feminists – but which they do to each other, sometimes unconsciously …
when I entered the ‘professional world,’ after earning my Master’s Degree at an impossibly young age — my work was publicly and brazenly plagiarized by a very famous “feminist” writer and teacher …
Most remarkable was the entitlement with which she lifted my writing and without crediting me, simply took it as her own.
This person espouses progressive values yet her actions, and worse – her reactions to my queries – had more in common with the politics of entitlement we witness today, than they do with any feminist theory —
When I spoke up about it, directly to her, in a vulnerable yet respectful manner – she shut it down, shut me down, ceased communications with me – and possibly did worse behind my back. It was in its own way – a “MeToo” moment. It was also oddly public and provable (still is), but no other woman backed me up – even though it was evident. The “clique” stuck together.
I completed my movie + album while continuing essays and posts about what I would come to call the “Gentrification of Culture ™ “© referring to the intellectual property theft and secret exclusionary behaviors in the most unlikely corners of Arts and Culture …
As we know, our work as feminists – and feminism can be fragile, as the world is often cruel to women who speak out, we often need each other — a form of Stockholm-Syndrome style bond out of necessity … so now the “famous feminists” can become the new bullies, having internalized the misogyny — perpetuating the predatory abuse of power — which is why I don’t often avail myself of friendships that are based in “need” or which arise out of hardships like global misogyny …
But there is a bond among us sisters and I always hold a wishful hope that women / girls I encounter will understand the need for true friendship, genuine caring, listening to each other — behaving towards our sisters in ways we wish to be treated … Unfortunately though, I’m going to say it here, and elsewhere – we often miss that mark.
I’m sorry to have to say it, sorrier to have experienced it, but damnit – we need to do better with each other. “Mean Girl Culture Cool” is often invoked when women / girls are acting all “empowered” – but of course that’s just stupid and self-defeating. We must do better.
Sisters – we really must. I offer the project below – which is the first in a trilogy on the subject. This project was a gift I made with my sisters, for my sisters all over the world. We might have been the first #AllFemaleCrew as a production team – but we were certainly among the very first ever and I am certain we were a catalyst.
I had thought that certain #Feminist pages would be a good place to share it and I hope that is true – nevertheless, no matter how, I hope it reaches both Sisters and #Brothers – because together – we really must #GirlTheWorld™ – this is why I made this project – I believe this is how we will over come #ClimateChange + Save Our Planet, Save Our Selves –
I believe the #SacredFeminine – the #Female – the #WomanKind on #MotherEarth is the main component of #Healing this #BluePlanet – our #WildLife our #SeaLife and our #Humanity ” © Cali Lili all rights reserved
And Now for an exciting share :
#Ladies + #Gentlemen For Your Awards Consideration :
” and though she be but little, she is fierce ” – #Shakespeare
from the very beginning of this journey
with #Tiny Budgets + tiny teams
we are SO PROUD to have met the requirements to take this step forward – DEFINITELY not easy for such a tiny studio – still taking her #BabySteps !
With TREMENDOUS #gratitude for our colleagues + supporters – those who helped this baby project in any way at all :
With tiny tears in our eyes
Great big #Pride 🏳️🌈🐬🏄🏽♀️🏄🏿♀️🏄🏾♀️🧜🏾♀️🌊 – in our #Hearts💞
Throwing Our Hat 🎬🎶🎩 all in !
“We Know we are the #DarkHorse here – but darkness – is nothing to fear …” Truli🐬©calilili™- and this grateful horse – just loves to run ! ” © All rights reserved