” ‘and though she be but little, she is fierce ‘” – (Shakespeare )
Ladies + Gentlemen,
In 2012 I set out to make a sustainable, green, upcycled all- female-crew motion picture —
with — an original, eclectic soundtrack —
much of it to be shot + recorded on a floating film set
and surrounding Venice Beach “hood” near my “AquaCultureZ™ WaterGarden™ feMt0™studi0”
“Pictures Words Music In Motion™”
” I didn’t want to make a film or album that I’d already seen before.
I was aware that most noted ‘counter-culture’ revolutions in media had previously involved an examination but also ultimate glorification of violence + what is sometimes described as ‘toxic masculinity.’
As my movie does include a theme + dedication to victims of violence against the LGBTQ community, women, indigenous communities and our oceans, our mother Earth, wildlife – especially Sea-Life (most feminine) – I did portray an act of violence, but I was cognizant of telling the story of the movie in a manner I described onscreen as ‘orgasmic’ existing alongside most storytelling which is often “phallic.”
I posit that both ‘orgasmic’ + ‘phallic’ storytelling can ( and must ) exist inter-dependently in our Arts + Culture.
I found myself having to not only “shatter glass ceilings” + “break sound-barriers” – but I also had to “break” some storytelling / cinematic / music ‘ rules ‘ –
in order to tell my ‘love-triangle’ ‘love-is-love – story’ : AUTHENTICALLY.
This wasn’t going to be structured like other movies – this “herstory” needed something from me + “she” is composed of the twin-Tao-yin-yang characters : “eVe” + “Lila.” “She” wrote herself, directed herself.
SO – my “Declaration of IndiePenDance™ re – EVOL ution ™ femt0™studi0 ” has evolved, organically – out of necessity – into a counter-culture womanifest0™ ” ©
An all female, openly LGBTQIA crew in 2013 was VERY NEW (still rare) – if we were not ‘the first’ – we are definitely among the very first –
Eyes widened whenever I floated the idea.
Also pushback – pushed back — on a variety of levels.
Some men “mansplained” – my idea was discriminatory. Others proudly displayed their self-hatred through open sexism, racism, homophobia, climate-denying biases, which was – briefly surprising but eventually – worthless, because hate, though ‘loud’ – is such a drab, useless – one way ticket.
Recently, I became aware of a “mini-genre” to which my “eVe” belongs – and by that I mean – movies which explore the internalized concepts of various religious “eves” – in the context of secular, colloquial (not biblical) culture.
As my Master’s degree incorporated both Anthropology+ Performance Arts – I tend to “study” culture – even while I’m creating it.
I’ve noticed + personally experienced – the regulations + limitations placed on HER-stories – the ” ‘slut-shaming” of “eVe” ‘ – which has : palpable, real-life consequence for most women, girls, feminine males + wildlife (especially Sea-Life , most feminine) — with it’s victims buried deep in the roots of most cultures.
When looking “in the closet” of any given Culture – if we venture to explore past the climate-denial, past homophobia and racism – we’ll find misogyny – hiding – way – WAY … at the back of that closet – where most of us, even women, are unaware of the insidious odor seeping deep :
” into the fabric – it’s in the stitches”© as my protagonist eVe™ discovers.
Misogyny – suspicion – hatred of all things femme, wild , uncontrollable, the soft-strength, the innocence – the vulnerability …
… including Nature, feminine girls, masculine girls, feminine boys, water, fluid sexuality + gender, wildlife, Sea-Life, cetaceans … “all are snaking along … slithering in + out of the multi-verse like the proverbial snake swallowing her own tail “© … all included … on that spectrum …
All that “femme” – is feared by the toxic entity which has hounded Humanity for eons – I’ll name it here : “that which believes it must control others or die.” That toxin can be present in women too.
My “eVe” spends a good bit of the movie “trapped” indoors and she wisely uses some of that time – exploring the “closet.”
eVe “speaks truth to power” when she discovers “in the closet” – that “Shame” is misogyny’s “favorite weapon – the ultimate WMD ” ©
I discussed my movie as ‘ archetypal fable’ – in a 2019 Interview – before I ever saw the other “eve” reference movies —
The project was made partly in response to my own Me-Too experiences (and that of fellow female artists + craftspersons).
I believe it’s impossible to fully comprehend what it’s like to be female – or LGBTQ – in the context of cultural biases + expectations toward – “female essence ” (“in all 6 billion gender expressions”© ) – without exploring the internalized cultural influences of – the “myth” of “eve” — and as I’ve posited in the film – equally important – Eve’s twin – whom we call “Lila” representing “the myth of Lillith.”
Furthermore, in understanding the ‘female experience’ – I truly believe that men, and ‘ male-identifying ‘ persons (some of whom, are biologically ‘female’) – will greatly benefit, resulting in the betterment of our blue-planet and ‘every inter-dependent living being’ ©
Those espousing hateful views towards people – or environmental conservancy – often cite economics + productivity as excuses for exclusionary actions. In fact, hate, exclusion + climate denial are completely – un-productive for society + for the planet.
It’s pure economics if one needs that sort of excuse. Discriminatory, hateful, wasteful energy create nothing except toxins + problems .
We already have a surplus of those.
This planet needs solutions that heal our problems. More than ever I believe education + quality communication skills are the universal “solvent” whereby we can dissolve + detoxify global cultures from such maladies.
In fact, my ” feMt0™studi0 AquaCultureZ™ “© which are ” Authentic Artisanal Farm To Table Indie Movies , Music, Books ™ —
– surviving independently, indigenous + sustainable – like an endangered species ( along with all other endangered species wildlife, Sea-Life, and the working class / middle class in every economy ) – on gasps of oxygen –
in spite of the BigMoney$ in BigMedia$ – enacting a full on — GentrificationOfCulture™ by buying up / swallowing up – the arts, the media – human culture ©
we are hand-made – on a sustainable shoestring budget – by an artist – with a crew of fellow artists + craftspersons (not a corporation) positing this idea :
” LOVE is good for the economy – we are MakinALivinNotAKillin™ “©
Which Should be a relief for some economists arguing with haters + abusers of power!
In my movie – my lead female protagonist – ‘eVe’ – posits new ideas to the male protagonist – ‘doctor Goddard / aka ‘god.’
“eVe” speaks “truth to power” when she posits her thesis about a “fempowered™ fluid female economy based on water instead of Oil ” © :
” oil – that’s energy from death – but WATER is LIFE! waterways of the world wear LINGERIE not boxers! ” ©
“eVe” continues her argument in this debate towards her PHD :
“doc, we REALLY need our goddesses back” © in order to create a “fair sex ecology, economy, a fair sex state! the STATE wants a goddess – NEEDS a goddess – ” © ( Cali Lili Indies ™ “eVe N’ god this female is not yet rated ™”©)
Mostly, the Project is driven by – connected with – a deeper, wider purpose.
Runaway With A Scholarship ™”
Just after graduating at an impossibly early age, having been skipped several grades, earned scholarships to pay my own tuition- with a Master’s Degree but no high school diploma – i stepped out into the “real world” only to discover that the “ISMs” I had believed to be “anachronISMs” – from history books – racism, sexism, homophobia , climate denial – the “male gaze” – the “white gaze ” + other “gazes” – were still alive and finding their way back , insidiously, into our world consciousness, our current histories + HERstories.
The HERstory that we are living now – became a source of great worry to me. I had survived an abusive childhood + I know abuse when I see it.
Abuse of Power exhibited all the tell-tale signatures of Domestic Abuse, Child-Abuse — AND – Environmental Abuse — on a larger scale. The ‘family’ is ‘humanity’ and as my family of origin was never a safe place to be — I had already adopted “Humanity” as the family with whom I “belong.”
As a person born of vastly varied, multi-cultural heritages – I could see early on – that “tribalism” was a way to keep walls between people. Which is why I was a “global citizen” before that became a hashtag.
‘Born on the water,’ I’ve always felt – my “true heritage” – is water.
The two debating characters in my movie – are never – in the same room.
They are separated by “walls” – through which they “debate” – but their ultimate “union” is a form of “healing” … a little miracle.
Large Part of the purpose for those Project – was my dedication to Sustainability + Green Practices.
My alarm at what’s happening to our planet – especially to our waters, ocean life, wildlife – all of which endanger human life + civilization, led me to take my own tiny climate- actions very early on.
In high school – I had designed a “SurFShackLoft™feMt0™studi0™h20 “ to be handbuilt very frugally – from biodegradable + upcycled materials.
Miraculously, this loft was built very economically – but equally important – was combining that Sustainability Ethos – with my aesthetics + methodologies developed from early background in dance+theater – to create my signature style along with SustainableFilmSets™.
Without a doubt, my feMt0™ studi0 is – the – Innovator/ Pioneer in SustainableFilmSets™ + “ArtisanalFarm-To-TableProductions™”© Sending out the “pearls” from my little “AquaCultureZ™ Direct to the audience from VenusBeach™ CuttingEdgeOfThePacific™
An added touch of sweetness came when i had asked my local farmers to donate lemons, avocados, kale and flowers, along with other produce – to the creation of our GardenOfeVe™ film set — and they were THRILLED to do so.
“ToyBoxTech ™ ©
As I planned for the movie, I realized that while I don’t consider myself a “designer” – my script – born from story + music (the lyrics are written into my scripts) — but also from methodology + aesthetics, had already designed both sets + costumes.
I hadn’t intended to do this. It just created itself.
We built an “indoor garden” that looked as though a proverbial metaphorical “eVe” embodied by a contemporary – “surfer-chick-student-burlesque-dancer eVe” – had left somewhere in a hurry + quickly planted her own indoor ” victory garden” – out of survival.
This wasn’t fully autobiographical but it metaphorically mirrored my childhood.
Hard as it was to convey – not wanting to sound grandiose – I just knew in the heart of that little girl who survived with the aid of her dedication toward the arts + teachers encouraging her talent – that little girl (me) – her eyes – were witnessing – what ‘eVe’ in my movie refers to – as ‘an ancient grief’ – her precious ‘global family’ – was falling victim to ancient abuse.
A ‘silent scream’ was often all that could be mustered by that little girl witnessing domestic violence at so young an age. That ‘silent scream’ sensation was returning but this time – ‘she’ – ‘the little girl me’ – was witnessing on a larger scale. Those who know about domestic abuse, know that the witnessing is even more destructive than most people know. Her childhood home was a place she had escaped – always imagining a beautiful world of possibility out here where ‘ the world is my living room’ © ( from one of the songs on the soundtrack ). Now THAT world was experiencing the ‘domestic abuse’ too.
I’m still discovering the movie and songs even now, perhaps the Project can be described as : “A Not-So-Silent Scream ™”© A project born from worry – destined for determination and resolve to be “HandMadeToMakeADifference ™.”©
“Odd Like Me”
eVe N’ god this female is not yet rated ™ ”
I’m in love.
With Movies –
and her sister – Music.
“Pictures Words Music in Motion ™”
In addition to a ” Coming Out ” this movie, this music is intended as a “Coming In From The Cold.”
All through the making of this project, I found myself fighting to save my studio and home in Venice Beach from the severe gentrification and homelessness growing all around me.
It was a familiar fight – against an unjust encroachment from abuse of power. Many times I found myself staying up all night figuring out legal documents, in order to fight back against Trump-style developers – while during the day – working to keep the project going.
A familiar struggle, reminiscent of a childhood framed with terror but propelled by hope and love. A childhood and adult-hood experienced by many less fortunate than myself.
Love. It can heal everything. I learned that early in life.
It’s odd, like me, earning a Masters’ degree (NYU) with no high-school diploma, having been skipped several grades directly into University. Odd – like me. My fellow students in the Masters’ program were already professors in other countries who had done all they could, to come to America, to study at NYU. I was a kid with no high school diploma – and they were grown-up professors. Odd, like me. I often think about them now, back in their countries and what they must think of America now.
Having survived an abusive childhood – I was dedicated to the arts and grateful for the “shelter” I could find in my deep love / passion for the arts and my teachers, who’d encouraged my work.
Dance was my first love – along with her twin – music. Then I discovered their sisters – theater and cinema. Along with the support of my teachers, these ladies “saved my life.”
Alone with my dreams, walking the pavement of NYC streets, afraid to go home on the subway until
late at night, I learned my craft comforted by the shelter of dance classes with Broadway Pros, art house cinema screens, and haunting legacy of timeless masterpieces echoing from the halls of every Manhattan museum and library.
My teachers were angels + allies in my “dreams come true” and thanks to them, and to my love – I won scholarships, was skipped grades and offered a scholarship to NYU where I earned my Masters’ Degree at a very young age.
One of my report cards described me as a “runaway imagination” and of course, I imagined my imagination running away and I myself became a “runaway with a scholarship.”
I caught a wave + scraped together my “half a shoestring” budget, built my tiny “green” grassroots, up-cycled, recycled, mostly “off the grid” floating film + music Tiny SurfLoft On The Water in Venice Beach, hand-picked my team + went to work !
I had saved up lemonade-stand, babysitting, yoga teacher + acting gig earnings and my hand-built studio and methodologies as a matter of following a course I had set, upon navigating my way from graduating with a Master’s Degree at an impossibly young age. There was a virtual drummer playing an indigenous soundtrack to my life and — I was listening and following the steps. The ocean was an important core for me and I had dedicated my artistry toward creating my own style of “AquaCulture.“
I likened it to building a “an oyster-pearl-farm” and my projects would encourage audiences to “sip the oyster savour the pearls .”©
My projects are :
“HandMade 2 Make A Difference with ToyBoxTechnology ™ ”
Riding the subways alone at too young an age, doing all I could not to go home – I found myself “living at” all my dance classes in private studios on additional dance scholarships, then “living at” the museums and libraries of NYC – kept me busy, along with part-time babysitting and other jobs to pay for anything scholarships didn’t cover.
So … I just … – never had time – to explore / learn about my own sexuality.
By the time I did learn about it – I was married to my much older male partner, and then BOOM – one day – I FELL — in love with a girl.
It felt CRAZY –
But it was also – BEYOND GREAT !
The LOVE I had for dance, and the arts – had now come full circle into bloom.
I was blooming.
My amazing male partner – reflected this too. He said – you are more YOU now.
I had a lot of figuring out to do.
First — I had to figure out – WHY – did I feel as though I was SUPPOSED to be upset?
I DID agonize about –
feel GUILTY about it —
but I HAD to ask – WHY?
That’s when it came to me – the title of one of the soundtrack songs + a work of art I released with the project :
“We Don’t Fall in Love, We Rise ™”
Little did I know how many times I would repeat that to myself + others.
We had a lot of figuring out to do. Luckily – I was and am still – married to an amazing human being.
Well, of course – I was growing up – growing into Me.
Along with this personal growth, came my awareness of what was happening in the 21st Century world at large.
My personal anguish into ecstasy and my growing deep concerns for the future of Humanity / Mother Earth as an “Endangered Species” became so agonizing – that my only way to deal with anxieties about what I saw happening to this planet in the 21st Century while I was literally “blooming” personally – was to speak up and speak out – doing what I do best.
Suddenly I KNEW that there were people who were experiencing the same “awakenings” about their sexuality but who were living in repressive cultures – and I wanted to reach out to them – to hear THEIR stories – and tell them it would be ok – share my experiences with them – when I first began visualizing this project in 2010.
In 2012 – I turned down three lucrative acting gigs in a row, because I felt they were degrading to women and to the arts in general. I decided that I would respond to “MeToo” experiences and the “toxic media culture” of the entertainment industry – by taking responsibility and “becoming the change I wished to see” as the saying goes. My teachers had believed in me – and I owed it to them, to that little girl who survived that childhood – and to the arts which gave me oxygen – to do my very best and not settle for just a paying gig to portray yet another “blonde.”
Although part of my anguish about the LGBTQ community was brought on by learning about the story of Brittany Cosby and Crystal Jackson, as well as Matthew Wayne Shepard – to whom the movie is dedicated on-screen … — never did I imagine, of course, that we’d be here today in 2019.
So many of my posts regarding this project were aimed at persons who lived in other ( more repressive ) cultures and dictatorships.
And here we are, ladies and gentlemen.
Here – we – are.
A ” Coming Out ” and a “Coming In From The Cold.”
I hoped to release a “healing balm” for the “global family” – at the intersections of LGBTQIA communities and my growing concerns for inter-related social justice crises such as – reproductive rights / women’s rights, violence against LGBTQ and female communities, Indigenous People’s and Black Lives Matter and Climate Change / endangered species.
As intended – this movie, soundtrack and everything my feMt0™studi0 has been working on since inception in 2012 has already reached selected but passionate audiences from Los Angeles to Lagos, Uganda to Agra, Mali, to Manhattan —
My wish after graduating – was to create an international – inter-disciplinary – multi-gender – mixed orientation team – in order to reach domestic + global audiences, without the “Over-Lords” of corporate media, stifling the creativity my teachers had encouraged in me.
Much to my surprise – I got a bit of that wish with the limited releases of this project and my first Youtube music video “Election Train” leading up to the movie. I had taken some time from the creation of the movie – to make the music video in order to support Obama’s re-election.
I am REALLY WISHING that with an acknowledgement from YOU — that this project can TRAVEL FARTHER – and reach MANY MORE people who might be comforted by it’s message of acceptance and LOVE IS LOVE – along with being entertained by the work itself.
Creating high quality cinema and music – was of utmost importance along with the “message” of the story. Excellence and Craft is a must.
I was very much aware of ‘composing’ + ‘designing’ along with screenplay-writing, directing, acting, along with rapping-singing+producing – so there’s definitely a ’21st-Century-Girl-rapper-rock-band‘ – aesthetic at work here . The wardrobe was a “meditation on mens-wear”© + I had imagined it could be a clothing line someday! This was also based on an exploration of “the male gaze” + “the white gaze.”
‘Culture is Nutrition meets Environment …’ ©
‘We Consume it + sometimes unwittingly, like the air we breathe, we consume by OSMOSIS …’©
Lovers of Movies + Music as well as – Free-speech a Free-Press, Journalism + uh – Basic Freedoms of Democracy might do the Culture + the Planet ( ourselves ) a favor – if we simply support an authentic indie artisanal “maker” like myself and my team.
I’m not against big budget films – I often love them!
And – I’d like to find more opportunities to work in them as an actress – because the current system is one big roadblock.
I just need a bit of “oxygen” – support from my community + from the Culture – to do what I do at my Sustainable femt0 ™studi0 : ” IndiGoGreen™ DreamBigTinyFootPrintZ™” we dream big + leave tiny footprints”©
Often , I liken my signature artisan-made process to “farm to table” + “Aquaculture.”
There’s a scene in Billy Wilder’s movie “Sabrina” where Audrey Hepburn as Sabrina , having been to the Sorbonne – is able to cobble together a feast – from just a few eggs + crackers + milk … – THAT’S my aesthetics …
Yes I’m mixing metaphors when I say I’m allowing the “AquaCulturalZ™ Oyster-Pearls to “vine-ripen” + then when we release a project – I aim to “nourish” through “pictures words music in motion ™” encouraging Audiences to :
“sip the oysterZ savor the pearlZ ™ “©
Every day at my ocean studio – I send out RIPPLES on the water – wishing for love and peace in the world …
My most effective “Ripple” is this move, this album … –
I hope that your acknowledgement — will help this Ripple travel much farther than I can get it to go on my own …
It’s funny how sometimes we have to do what GingerRogers described along the lines of “dancing Backwards In High Heels ” – in order to move forward one step.
“She takes her baby steps,
” and though she be but little, she is fierce ” – (Shakespeare )
this quote is invoked in one of my favorite true-life stories about the great ” seabiscuit ” –
a story warming my heart from the very beginning of this journey with my own movie – Tiny Budgets + tiny teams – uphill climbs – hopes + dreams –
‘ She KNOWS
she’s the Dark Horse here –
she doesn’t fear
+ Oh she loves to run…
My genuine aim is to:
” nourish ” through
Music In Motion ” ™
Bon Apetit !
“We Don’t Fall in Love,
We Rise ™ “©
Truli© Cali Lili
Post Script :
© Cali Lili ;
My process is based on my methodologies in my book ‘The Declaration Of IndiePenDance™’ where I explore my film-making+music-making approach – I call it c.lili™ ‘s CynAesthetiX™ and it includes a variety of innovations in cinematic+music aesthetics.
As a young actress who’s taken the time to respect the history / HERstory of my craft – from the craftspersons’ perspective – I know that ‘innovation’ rests upon the past + is a bridge to the future.
With My Sisters – For My Sisters : in my recent writings and explorations about feminism — I am finding it crucial for us to find out – not so much why men hurt women – but instead, why some women – hurt women –
including the fact that often, we women, hurt ourselves, it’s a vicious cycle – and by hurting our sisters, we are expressing our self hatred …
I explored this – but it was not until VERY recently that I fully understood the depth of how these incidents shape us from childhood, into our teenage years, school experiences and then –
importantly, as we enter the professional world and encounter the competitive forces from our sisters, which often lead women to do unspeakable things – things they write about and rail against as #feminists – but which they do to each other, sometimes unconsciously …
I completed my movie + album while continuing essays and posts about what I would come to call the “Gentrification of Culture ™ “© referring to the intellectual property theft and secret exclusionary behaviors in the most unlikely corners of Arts and Culture …
As we know, our work as feminists – and feminism can be fragile, as the world is often cruel to women who speak out, we often need each other — a form of Stockholm-Syndrome style bond out of necessity … so now the “famous feminists” can become the new bullies, having internalized the misogyny — perpetuating the predatory abuse of power — which is why I don’t often avail myself of friendships that are based in “need” or which arise out of hardships like global misogyny …
But there is a bond among us sisters and I always hold a wishful hope that women / girls I encounter will understand the need for true friendship, genuine caring, listening to each other — behaving towards our sisters in ways we wish to be treated … Unfortunately though, I’m going to say it here, and elsewhere – we often miss that mark.
I’m sorry to have to say it, sorrier to have experienced it, but damnit – we need to do better with each other. “Mean Girl Culture Cool” is often invoked when women / girls are acting all “empowered” – but of course that’s just stupid and self-defeating. We must do better.
Sisters – we really must. I offer the project below – which is the first in a trilogy on the subject. This project was a gift I made with my sisters, for my sisters all over the world. We might have been the first AllFemaleCrew as a production team – but we were certainly among the very first ever and I am certain we were a catalyst.
The Project is not easy to pigeonhole – and that’s true to form. I never wanted to make a movie I’ve already seen anywhere else.
One could describe this movie as :
A meditation on ‘male-gaze’ – ‘white-gaze’ – ‘mens-wear’ + other ‘ISMs’….
“A Not So Silent Scream ” ©
I’m still discovering it myself.
I offer it up and hope it reaches both Sisters and Brothers too –
Together – we really must GirlTheWorld™ – this is why I made this project – I believe this is how “we shall over-come” our challenges – the ISMS – racism, sexism, homophobia and including climate denial.
I believe honoring the “Sacred Feminine” – the Female – the WomanKind on MotherEarth is the main component of Healing this BluePlanet – our WildLife our SeaLife and our Humanity ” © Cali Lili all rights reserved
Ladies + Gentlemen
of AMPAS ®
For Your Awards Consideration :
‘ ankle deep in fairy dust
u know in unicorns I trust –
dude I am
my own latitude
my own ATTITUDE –
in Tahiti I will flow
back to Hana I will glow
I’m dat island girl
da one u dreamed up
Oh oh oh
magnificent me —
a 1st Rate Me ..
turns out 2 be — …
a 1st rate ME
2nd Rate :
Supposed – 2 – Be
Oh Oh Oh
Magnificent : Me! ‘
” #WeToo #ForTheIndividual : Dear John💕Doe-Big-Corporate-Scale-Every-Thing-Head-Quarters 💕©CaliLili™
We appreciate – some – of the ‘humanitarian work’ done by “JohnDoeBigCorporateScaleEveryThingHeadQuarters ” —
even though you sometimes brazenly, disrespectfully + wrongly ” borrow from ” our work —
for #SocialJustice + #EnvironmentalJustice
as a TruliIndie™ artist
a 21stCenturyGirl —
a survivor of a “MeToo” sexist misogynistic racist homophobic climate denying corporatocracy fuelling the “CulturalIndustrialComplex™
and on behalf of my team, my “tribe” : generations of “kids of all ages colors creeds + stages ” ™ © along with our grandmothers + grandfathers — similarly afflicted by the indifference of “BIG” (stretching back way before my time) –
I declare the “DeclarationOfIndiePenDance™© honoring a ” 21stCenturyRenaissanceInTheWorks™© “
My team + I work diligently – on a small scale + to promote awareness of important causes and to “weave culture “© on my loom : WildWovenSlow™
Formerly we were ok with following ‘big’ accounts — such as yours — even if they had thousands of followers and even when the “big” – indifferently discarded their own followers- chose only to follow back a few – mostly other “big” accounts. So it goes – “big” supports “big” – the big get bigger .
Recently though… I’ve been thinking … yeah, I’m doing that again …
the fact of the matter is – that independent artists like myself and my team,
as well as “individuals” with “free agency” – freedom to speak out , speak up, freedom to speak for ourselves — about ourselves —
we are neither “big” enough nor interested in attending big donor “charity” functions – strange as it may seem to you — we are also not as “entertained” by your “lifestyles of the obscenely wealthy” – as you may believe we are … stranger still — you may be surprised or confused by our wish to be “makin’ a livin’ not a killin’ “™ © by means of our own handmade meaningful work – not your predigested pablum.
I’ve noticed that – even human rights + other righteous causes have now become increasingly “gentrified” in what I name in my writings :
“GentrificationOfCulture™” – as though it’s not enough for “big” to be big – now – “big” needs to be worshipped for the table scraps they toss Humanity from the table of a charity … In fact every bit of dysfunction we witness in politics today – was auditioned in our cultural big media laboratories – funded by – you.
“we the people ” — including those of us working for years in the humanities – as artists or thinkers, teachers, activists, social workers – must be the makers of our own culture – without your helicopter mind and hand directing our every move from your bank account.
Now that you also want to “gobble up” this dignified work space — which we built — like so many artist neighborhoods built out of the ashes of poverty – that you swoop in and buy up — pushing us out of our own masterpiece — so that we must worship at your tables —
We too – are not just figuratively, but now literally, viscerally – an “endangered species” –
We Too find ourselves at the mercy of the trajectory of a path — which leaves all the ” humanity-based meaningful work” — to the 1 percent – who don’t need the work — they need to be worshipped in spite of their greed – so they “Don” our handmade wardrobes – and only then – declare it ‘holy’ –
– thus – pushing the people out of their own hoods and tribes – in order to keep us in the place you designated for us : “indentured servitude ” to your benevolent kingly bank account – even when it comes to our humanity, our environment, our arts , our very Culture – and therefore our legacy, our history, herstory — our future – our lives.
This form of “gentrified thinking” – also demands that we be grateful for your charity.
But we must not be grateful.
21st Century Social media was born to be democratic, meritorious but also – personal, new-found oxygen for the individual — village-oriented – not Corporate – not “mega.”
#WeToo choose not to harken backwards in time towards gentrification —
but to bring forward all that our ancestry built into a strong culture “for the individual” – into an inclusive – and fair —
with happiness, freedom, wellness, education, food safety — economic justice working hand in hand with environmental justice — at the forefront of our GDP – not an afterthought for table scrap billionaire philosophies —
“BigTinyFuture™ ” – for the whole planet – not just 1 percent.
We dedicate every one of our PoeticJusticeP rojeX™ to this “BigTinyFuture™ ©
Indie Motion Picture
original soundtrack :
eVe N’ god
this female is not yet rated ™©
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Debut Album + Soundtrack available wherever music is streamed
Interview 2019 :
Everything happening in
#politics now –
happened first –
in the Corporate Entertainment
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When I coined terms like
#ArtisanAuteur™ ArtisanalMovies™ ArtisanalMoviesMusicAndBooks™ etc
it was due 2 the #Authenticity
of my Authentic #Artisan status
as a #Maker
but when such terms are appropriated by Corporations –
THAT’S an example of yet other terms I coined :
Everything happening in politics now – happened first – in Media
I’ve HAD to coin terms
figure things out
since the founding of my tiny feMt0™studi0
born from the ashes
of #MeToo –
in order to find some OXYGEN –
rise above the greed of corporate gentrification, shatter sound barriers + #glassceilings –
with love + dedication
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w her MFFreedom
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Film Clip: burlesque Pole RIPPING dance scene :
#fantasy #feminisme #feminism #scifi
#WorldWide on #Vimeo 🎬
Also on 🍎 #Apple movies and music
#AquaCultureZ™ 🐬 🧜🏽♀️🧜🏼♀️🧜🏿♀️🏄🏾♀️🏄🏼♀️🏄🏿♀️⚫⚪⚫🦀📿⏳🎬🎼🌬️💨🌊🌊🌊🌎🎧🎥🗽☯️🐣🕊️
In the heart + hood of #gentrification Venice-Beach
I designed it in #HighSchool ! 🧚🏽♀️🧚🏼♀️🧚🏿♀️
#recycled materials in #harmony with the #oceans #sealife + #wildlife
the #farmtotable lifestyle is exactly what we do both personally and professionally-
we had several
#farmers – including #femalefarmers contribute produce to the film set and to the crew lunches !
I co-star, write, direct, produce, design the costumes, sets, sing + co-write the soundtracks + my team wear multiple hats too …
It’s #Authentic : #ArtisanMade
Now that CorporateMedia attempts to continue their #GentrificationOfCultureZ™ #GentrificationOfCulture™
#appropriation of #methodologies I’ve developed since my #GraduateSchool work in #anthropology + Performance-Studies –
it’s important that
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