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” #GentrificationOfCulture™ #Culture is NutritionMeetsEnvironment™ “© We Consume by OSMOSIS : If u 💕 Movies + Music, Journalism + Democracy : ReadTheIndieLabel™ WhatsInYourIndie™ who’s lobbying in legislature + WHY © ” #media #savedemocracy

Culture

is

Nutrition Meets Environment ™ :

We Consume it

+ sometimes unwittingly,  like the air we breathe, by OSMOSIS :

If You Love Movies + Music : Please ReadTheIndieLabel™ + Ask : WhatsInYourIndie™

If you love your basic democratic freedoms : please support authentic journalism, journalists, a free press + ASK QUESTIONS – like – who’s lobbying in your legislature, and who benefits from legislation?

We Consume Culture + a sometimes it’s OSMOSIS.

As an indie artist – I ask movie + music lovers to SupportTheARTSustainTheARTisT ™

CureAteFoYoSelf™ so many “curators” are working with big money sources of content to make their “picks” that it’s pointless to consider it “curating” especially when we are living in a far more diverse 21st Century – where – so-called “curating” amounts to gate-keeping – when we CAN + SHOULD discover on our own – it’s SO MUCH MORE FUN!

Reading ‘the indie label’ is not unlike reading a nutrition label.

A Sacred Space :

SupportTheARTSustainTheARTisT™

Neighborhoods built from scratch by dedicated, caring, working people, are – like great relationships and also like great works of art / craft made by artisans in communion with culture – a ‘sacred space’ – which must not be violated by the pale glow of so-called ‘progress’ fueled by the zero-sum games of bottom-line parasitical leeches : cultural imposters – bottom-feeders + 1%er top-slurpers .

The 21st century dedicated working class indie artist – like 21st century – middle-class/working class humanity –

– could become an Endangered Species “© together – if we don’t recognize that GentrificationOfCulture ™© is a problem for us both.

It’s not solved with Publicity Stunts + gimmicks –  the kinds of ‘ charity / charities employed mainly to bestow grace on the Charity-Giver and to  absolve them of their quiet Economic Sins –

When ” citizens united” was passed by the ” scotus corporate subsidiary” they opened the door for future elimination of individual human innovation – to be gentrified by corporate-owned “Artificial Intelligence” –

If successful – this would amount to a full scale attack on free-thinking, free-living individual human “genius” (for lack of a better term) – in favor of a “wholly owned subsidiary / subsidized ” form of “genius” – only allowed to see “daylight” once fully patented by the corporation who ultimately “owned” it outright through astronomical – financially – subsidized legal means. Corporate welfare – seeking to eliminate human welfare (unless it serves the corporation).

– ‘these quiet crimes’ referenced in my song ‘4the9th™’ / ForTheNinth™© – about hurricane Katrina in New Orleans are the ‘quiet discrimination’ –

are the silent marauders sowing seeds, like harmful weeds + even more harmful pesticides, like both – virus and it’s over prescribed antibiotic – culminating in the overgrowth and dissemination of an antibiotic-resistant ‘strain’ of an ongoing economic discrimination virus –

– a virus fueled by it’s De-Nihil-ISM™ siblings – racism, sexism, homophobia, ageism , climate denial – where money doesn’t just ‘talk’ – it screams obscenities – and destroys culture + more importantly – it destroys the living artist.

What’s worse is that some of these Intruders – dare to Don themselves, Cloak themselves in the mantle of ‘artist’ – twice insulting the artist + the culture she serves, the culture she weaves, the culture with which she is interdependent.

Sometimes well-meaning, often self-serving “entertainment reporters” / “curators” ( pronounced cure-haters at our studio) who sometimes come in the form of what is often referred to as ‘ arts + culture journalists’ whether they work for high-brow or low-brow publications / media – are often entitled dilettantes / trust-fund babies themselves – who contribute to the so called “curator class” and either detest us because they can’t make art themselves – or simply do NOT understand or care about the real – flesh and blood and guts – and life of an artist –

These “culture-vultures are virulent enablers of this GentrificationOfCulture ™ – and are literally destroying the Culture – and more importantly – the living breathing artist who needs the Culture as much as we need oxygen. Guys – you don’t get it – and I’ll continue to try – to explain.

De-Nihil-ISM™ + GentrificationOfCulture™ ColonializationOfCulture™ – are cure-ated in a healing medicinal born of RESPECT +  self-determination –

It’s about sharing not only the wealth but also the opportunity –

#WhatsInYourIndie™ :

It’s something Audiences – cinephiles and audiophiles alike – can be aware of when ever we purchase movies + music —

The term “indie” is much appropriated and it’s not a matter of race or gender- it’s about – asking the same questions we ask of our nutrition – who made it?

Did some Corporate entity swoop in and find a malleable “candidate” ( as is done in politics) to mold and shape into the “image” of “what they tell us – we the people – want”?

ReadTheIndieLabel™

Just as with nutrition AND with voting – if we all take a moment to “read the ingredients” of who made the Culture we “consume” — and seek out our own “Van Gogh”- support those of us who have authentically dedicated our lives to crafting culture – we would then continue the great tradition of creating Culture together – a relationship between Audiences and professional “culture – crafters “™©-

and together we would pushback AGAINST the Corporate dominance over us ALL – because we are in the same boat.

We need to support the professional artist in media, movies , music, books – in their daily dedication —

getting a fair shot but ALSO what’s getting discarded in many industries and economies : the waning respect and growing indifference to the so called “middle class” which IS the so called “working class.”It’s about respect due – for merit as well as professionalism and dedication of one’s life to either a craft — or just as worthy – any profession – any job done well.


The Professional Artist who is an Authentic Independent Artist – is quite discernible by anyone paying attention to the “nutrition label” – it’s often someone who’s – not ‘signed’ – not ‘owned’ – not ‘in the club’ – or simply – unwilling to follow club-rules but also unwilling to sacrifice the wellness of her Culture for personal gain or ego. She’s – a crafts-person – and viewers + listeners should consider supporting the Authentic Indie Artist —

while corporate middle-persons should support + respecting those who’ve dedicated years to that craft – 

not stand ‘in the middle’ of an artist’s relationship with her listeners + viewers – with your hand out, nor your tongue – slurping off the top –


because

THAT’S

a SACRED SPACE . “©

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so deep in the fabric 


it’s in the stitches … 


when goddesses 


were removed 


from 


faith 


law 


medicine


and 


culture 


Toxic Masculinity 


was born


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Variety listing Oscars 2020 : https://variety.com/2019/film/awards/oscars-academy-announces-344-films-eligible-for-2019-best-picture-1203446314/

🎙️ 2019  :
https://medium.com/@mondofilm/interview-with-cali-lili-from-eve-n-god-this-female-is-not-yet-rated-6d50611b758e

🎙️ 2017 ️  :
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“These 


Are


The 


 Days Of eVe™ ☯️ 


in the closet of culture 


behind racism 


homophobia





climate denial 


we find 


misogyny


it’s insidious odor


so deep in the fabric 


it’s in the stitches … 


when goddesses 


were removed 


from 


faith 


law 


medicine


and 


culture 


Toxic Masculinity 


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also :


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Variety listing Oscars 2020 : https://variety.com/2019/film/awards/oscars-academy-announces-344-films-eligible-for-2019-best-picture-1203446314/

🎙️ 2019  :
https://medium.com/@mondofilm/interview-with-cali-lili-from-eve-n-god-this-female-is-not-yet-rated-6d50611b758e

🎙️ 2017 ️  :
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Demystify The Dictator

as Bully Abuser with Mental Illness

End Tolerance For Pathology.

reprinted from 2014

Meditations on 

Cali Lili ‘s   

Oscars 2020 Contender

movie + soundtrack

“eVe N’ god

this female is not yet rated “™

© Cali Lili™ 

(media links enclosed below) 

Dear World,

It is time to Recognize,

Understand

and Remedy with Alacrity

the very Simple Cause for Abusive Conditions under which so many innocent people suffer.

The Pathological Psychology of a State Dictator is that of any other Common Bully, Emotional Abuser, Physical Abuser …

Please let us apply the Same Common Sense Remedies for any other case of Abuse

The Same Remedies applied Upon receiving the Abused Family Members into a Safe House or Shelter can be applied globally

The Stakes are catastrophic if we neglect this Mental Wellness for Our Global Family

At the very simplest psychological level – the solutions are so clear

Like any Culture or Group of People oppressed by The Dictator – the Family Members of an Abuser suffer unimaginably, the daily agonies of tortures – both physical and psychological 

These agonies damage victims for generations

Unhealing Wounds paid forward into the future …

generation after generation …

from private hells 

to genocide 

scarring, savaging the humanities of us all as the wound becomes encoded genetically

In a never-ending cycle of misplaced tolerance for pathology.

Democracy’s genius lies partly in it’s foundation of “Balance Of Powers” 

Whereas Absolute Power is a certain path to Abuse Of Power whether it be exacted on an individual, family, nation, economy, or planet.

The Survivors’ Wisdom teaches :

Survivors of Domestic Abuse, Child Abuse, Workplace Abuse, wildlife, sealife, environmental abuse know the Mechanics of Abuse of Power require enabling by those who amplify and ultimately enable the authoritarian to speak at their victims, stealing the Voice of The Victim by appropriation of the victim role – while alienating friends and family – to isolate and deny the victim from rescuers.

Jealous of unattainable excellence and of love they feel denied – the abusers’ self-soothing tool is abuse of any power in their capacity, whether it be the smallest or the greatest effect – they are so powerless to heal their own malady, they seek to exact revenge on any thing , any one willing to tolerate or enable the rampage.

The Abuser must completely control their environment in order to escape accountability and consequences and to that end they must recruit little armies of enablers forming a cult of weak followers who see themselves reflected in the dictator’s delusional superiorities.

The rampage might be an unconscious mechanism unknown to the Abusers themselves, can seem quite innocuous, even laughable at first.

But with time, enabling, tolerance of little pathologies by increments … Absolute Power is the goal of their dis-ease … The disease rules.

The mechanics include fomenting chaos and faking victimhood – the abuser obfuscates and obstructs justice and healing.

The abuser dictator derives relief of their own pain, by causing suffering in others.

Their only destination is death and the ceasing of their own pain, but they are too sick in their ego’s narcissistic quest to prove their superiority, so they harm everything in their environment in a quest for personal glory.

Please let us End Our Tolerance for Pathology and Begin the Remedy with the very same Basic Common Sense used to protect an innocent child from the Pathology of her abuser.

If We Numb ourselves into delusive agreement with Toxic Apathies, lulling ourselves into the Oblivion of a Depressed World View that holds it impossible to end war, abuse, hate, torture … – then what?

Then by abdication, we have accepted our own Demise through knowing and willful Sufferage of Pathology and Abuse

If we accept Such Sufferage for another, then by definition, we accept it for ourselves …

To see this truth – is one step toward Global Mental Wellness and therefore – one step toward the remedy of a condition that literally plagues us like a global pandemic

Global Mental Wellness Assures Global Physical Survival by our admission and acceptance of the Larger, Kinder and Most Practical Truth …

That Truth is of our Unlimited Potential … to counteract the equally unlimited pathologies of the Abuser …

Global Mental Wellness is vital to our survival and perhaps we ignore and discount it because most cultures do the same with individual Mental Wellness

Via Global Mental Wellness we will have access to these Remedies :

It is Possible to access our own Toxic Emotions as individuals and also as Cultures, Societies, States, Countries …

It is Possible for us all to Detoxify, Remedy, Improve, Heal our own Behaviours when we know we have crossed a line

It is Possible to Recognize Early Warning Signs of Impending Events via Understanding the Mechanism of Abuse and the Psychology of The Abuser

and

It is Possible and Necessary

To Say “No” in the Very Earliest Stages of any impending Abusive Event,

It is Possible and Necessary,

To Say “No” most often with Non-Violence

It is Possible and Necessary

To Say “No”

Whenever a Dictatorial, Abusive presence rears its ugly head across our own boundaries whether they be personal physical boundaries at home, at work or national boundaries

It really is – Possible.

Now.

Right Now.

Then – let us say “YES” to Urgent Care for Social Justice + Climate Action 

We have Emergency Rooms for broken bones but not broken spirits so let us create a coalition of lawyers, universities, social and public service workers and wellness professionals to build an online + phone in network that amounts to “Social Justice + Climate Emergency Rooms “™©

Let’s Do This.

Now.

Right Now.

~ ~ ~

© cali lili reprinted from 2014 in 2021

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Oscars 2020 Contender :

“eVe N’ god
this female is not yet rated ™ ” ©

World-Wide :

iTunes 🎬🎼🍎
https://itunes.apple.com/us/movie/eve-n-god-this-female-is-not-yet-rated/id1447735793

Apple TV 🎬🍎  https://tv.apple.com/us/movie/eve-n-god-this-female-is-not-yet/umc.cmc.2yxdyr5yqcmhr1y1hn195e3sm

also :

YouTube Movies + Music  
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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Mxgf1AeeWw4&list=PLOo3oJVjWZYTKa092ES4_ncFupWbjCKnt&index=2

Google Play 🎬🎼  https://play.google.com/store/movies/details?id=Mxgf1AeeWw4

Vimeo   🎬   https://vimeo.com/ondemand/189618

Soundtrack  🎼🍎
https://itunes.apple.com/us/album/this-female-is-not-yet-rated/1402313761

Official YouTube Artist   🎶 Channel  

https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCfmQSviatkBEmFmRzsCyo3g

Official Apple Music Artist 🍎 🎶 Site 

https://music.apple.com/us/artist/cali-lili/1402310156

Variety listing Oscars 2020 : https://variety.com/2019/film/awards/oscars-academy-announces-344-films-eligible-for-2019-best-picture-1203446314/

🎙️ 2019  :
https://medium.com/@mondofilm/interview-with-cali-lili-from-eve-n-god-this-female-is-not-yet-rated-6d50611b758e

🎙️ 2017 ️  :
http://www.wearemovingstories.com/we-are-moving-stories-films/2017/6/21/eve-n-god-this-female-is-not-yet-rated

FB Movie Page 🎬  : https://www.facebook.com/CaliLiliSustainableMoviesMusicAndPublishing/ 

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Demystify The Dictator

as Bully Abuser with Mental Illness

End Tolerance For Pathology.

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Meditations on 

Cali Lili ‘s   

Oscars 2020 Contender

movie + soundtrack

“eVe N’ god

this female is not yet rated “™

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Dear World,

It is time to Recognize,

Understand

and Remedy with Alacrity

the very Simple Cause for Abusive Conditions under which so many innocent people suffer.

The Pathological Psychology of a State Dictator is that of any other Common Bully, Emotional Abuser, Physical Abuser …

Please let us apply the Same Common Sense Remedies for any other case of Abuse

The Same Remedies applied Upon receiving the Abused Family Members into a Safe House or Shelter can be applied globally

The Stakes are catastrophic if we neglect this Mental Wellness for Our Global Family

At the very simplest psychological level – the solutions are so clear

Like any Culture or Group of People oppressed by The Dictator – the Family Members of an Abuser suffer unimaginably, the daily agonies of tortures – both physical and psychological 

These agonies damage victims for generations

Unhealing Wounds paid forward into the future … generation after generation … scarring, savaging the humanities of us all as the wound becomes encoded genetically

In a never-ending cycle of misplaced tolerance for pathology.

Democracy’s genius lies partly in it’s foundation of “Balance Of Powers” 

Whereas Absolute Power is a certain path to Abuse Of Power whether it be exacted on an individual, family, nation, economy, or planet.

The Survivors’ Wisdom teaches :

Survivors of Domestic Abuse, Child Abuse, Workplace Abuse, wildlife, sealife, environmental abuse know the Mechanics of Abuse of Power require enabling by those who amplify and ultimately enable the authoritarian to speak at their victims, stealing the Voice of The Victim by appropriation of the victim role – while alienating friends and family – to isolate and deny the victim from rescuers.

Jealous of unattainable excellence and of love they feel denied – the abusers’ self-soothing tool is abuse of any power in their capacity, whether it be the smallest or the greatest effect – they are so powerless to heal their own malady, they seek to exact revenge on any thing , any one willing to tolerate or enable the rampage.

The Abuser must completely control their environment in order to escape accountability and consequences and to that end they must recruit little armies of enablers forming a cult of weak followers who see themselves reflected in the dictator’s delusional superiorities.

The rampage might be an unconscious mechanism unknown to the Abusers themselves, can seem quite innocuous, even laughable at first.

But with time, enabling, tolerance of little pathologies by increments … Absolute Power is the goal of their dis-ease … The disease rules.

The mechanics include fomenting chaos and faking victimhood – the abuser obfuscates and obstructs justice and healing.

The abuser dictator derives relief of their own pain, by causing suffering in others.

Their only destination is death and the ceasing of their own pain, but they are too sick in their ego’s narcissistic quest to prove their superiority, so they harm everything in their environment in a quest for personal glory.

Please let us End Our Tolerance for Pathology and Begin the Remedy with the very same Basic Common Sense used to protect an innocent child from the Pathology of her abuser.

If We Numb ourselves into delusive agreement with Toxic Apathies, lulling ourselves into the Oblivion of a Depressed World View that holds it impossible to end war, abuse, hate, torture … – then what?

Then by abdication, we have accepted our own Demise through knowing and willful Sufferage of Pathology and Abuse

If we accept Such Sufferage for another, then by definition, we accept it for ourselves …

To see this truth – is one step toward Global Mental Wellness and therefore – one step toward the remedy of a condition that literally plagues us like a global pandemic

Global Mental Wellness Assures Global Physical Survival by our admission and acceptance of the Larger, Kinder and Most Practical Truth …

That Truth is of our Unlimited Potential … to counteract the equally unlimited pathologies of the Abuser …

Global Mental Wellness is vital to our survival and perhaps we ignore and discount it because most cultures do the same with individual Mental Wellness

Via Global Mental Wellness we will have access to these Remedies :

It is Possible to access our own Toxic Emotions as individuals and also as Cultures, Societies, States, Countries …

It is Possible for us all to Detoxify, Remedy, Improve, Heal our own Behaviours when we know we have crossed a line

It is Possible to Recognize Early Warning Signs of Impending Events via Understanding the Mechanism of Abuse and the Psychology of The Abusera

and

It is Possible and Necessary

To Say “No” in the Very Earliest Stages of any impending Abusive Event,

It is Possible and Necessary,

To Say “No” most often with Non-Violence

It is Possible and Necessary

To Say “No”

Whenever a Dictatorial, Abusive presence rears its ugly head across our own boundaries whether they be personal physical boundaries at home, at work or national boundaries

It really is – Possible.

Now.

Right Now.

~ ~ ~

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The HERstory of

Our Oscars 2020 Contender:

2021 / 2022 Update : this innovative project is featured in exciting upcoming documentaries by other producers and we are in pre-production on my next indie movie + album … all TBA

In 2012 I set out to make a sustainable, green, upcycled, lgbtqia , interracial love story – an – all- female-crew motion picture —

with — an original, eclectic soundtrack

much of it to be shot + recorded on a floating film set

and surrounding Venice Beach “hood” near my “AquaCultureZ™ WaterGarden™ feMt0™studi0”

Upon graduating early with a Master’s Degree from NYU, then entering the life of a “working actress” I learned most roles offered to girls + women (except a lucky few) were too often broadcasting degrading messages about us.

I tried to “adjust” a couple of the early roles – to balance ‘ the power in the frame.’ Despite the content of any given dialogue or role, I worked to imbue the character with strength.

I was beginning to get offered somewhat lucrative roles, I was more than willing to work hard – “work my way up.” The problem with that plan – is summarized by the “MeToo” movement, which is not just about inappropriate sexual innuendo, but psychological abuse leading to agony, resulting in self-doubt.

It’s also an Economics problem, with roadblocks held in place by threads of racism, sexism , homophobia , climate-ignorance in a gate-keeping culture – when all I wanted was to excel in the profession to which I’d dedicated myself whole-heartedly.

I’d been warned about this environment by older actors ( not actresses ) but assumed times had changed so I walked blindly into an environment reminiscent of a bygone era that had never updated it’s own “operating system.”

There I was with all this 21st Century software but there was nothing to run it.

How does a professional, work their way up such a slippery ladder? Perhaps economic inequality is sourced in such pathologies?

Until #MeToo became a hashtag – I’ll venture to guess that most women suffered under the weight of judgement by their families, friends and self-criticism about why they hadn’t progressed further despite their talent and drive. The worst part, is not being supported by “sisters” of a sorority I feel could be so comforting – and even worse, navigating a hyper-competitive “pigeons-for-scraps” culture based in scarcity where ideas and intellectual property can be so easily appropriated by those with power, harvested from those without.

I’ll venture to guess we all felt as though it was just happening to us alone. Similar to the “Occupancy Wall Street” awareness – when people realized that getting their degrees and working hard was not enough in an economy rigged for the 1 percent.

Even if I’d been willing to be willing on whatever levels of “consent” – I’d just come from surviving an abusive childhood – literally “rescued” by my passion for acting , dance, arts , learning – and my teachers who saw the talent, had invested their care in that little girl rushing through the streets of Manhattan – from dance class to acting class to anthropology and science classrooms.

They’d invested their own passion for education – in that little girl – me.

I couldn’t let them down and I couldn’t let down other little girls who might someday see a movie that I was in – and when she sees me in that movie, she sees herself and when she sees herself, I want her to feel strong, not helpless. I want “her” to feel proud of “HERstory.”

After turning down three lucrative roles in a row, especially after bumping into one of the producers I’d turned down at a social event – noticing his “WHO are YOU to turn ME down glare ” –

I sucked it up – GLARED BACK with a smile –

and THAT was the moment I learned :

WHO I AM ? Is a girl who won’t get bullied – ever again.

Who I am – is a girl choosing integrity over expediency – no matter how ambitious I may be.

And I’m ambitious.

In that moment – I realized – the only way to hopefully “work my way up” – without dipping way down into the “MeToo” swamp I found myself wading through – was to make my own film and album – with an all female crew – so that I could speak to “the little girl in everyone”© – and – simply do what I do best : “pictures words music in motion ™” ©


I also understood that it wasn’t “men” – it wasn’t “directors” or “producers” — it was the Culture at large. Certainly I’d run into plenty of women who had internalized misogyny to enact upon sisters and there was plenty of it in every profession. I had to find a way to work in my chosen profession, to which I had already dedicated – so I chose – to literally “be the change I wished to see” as the saying goes.

Having studied anthropology along with intercultural, interdisciplinary performance modalities – I felt uniquely equipped to grapple with these new insights – even though, they’d prove beyond challenging to implement. I’d be needing some miracles and tons of hard work integrating the education + early work experience I’d earned – with the realities of making a movie and album. A tall order.

I had saved up babysitting, lemonade stand, acting gigs and yoga teacher earnings and these were “startup funds” which I partly used to create our first music video “ElectionTrain” made in urgent support for Obama. Then we began pre-pre-production on the feature motion picture :

“eVe N’god this female is not yet rated ™©

FOR YOUR CONSIDERATION

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I didn’t want to make a film or album that I’d already seen before.

I was aware that most noted ‘counter-culture’ revolutions in media had previously involved an examination but also ultimate glorification of violence + what is sometimes described as ‘toxic masculinity.’

The film prologue introduces my storytelling concepts which I’ve been referring to, as : “orgasmic” instead of “phallic.” I’m positing that my liquid, fluid, music-based, “orgasmic” storytelling journey to tell the “love-is-love-triangle-story” of eVe, Lila + Doctor Goddard – can exist in harmony with the more normative “phallic” cinematic storytelling styles most cultures expect in a narrative movie. While other directors have experimented with dabbling in it – I feel my movie, while working within the constraints of a modest budget, fully explores this type of storytelling, not with outer special effects, but with inner ones.

The movie draws us “under” and “into” the deep end of the pool, the pond, the ocean as if vacillating between conscious + unconscious time-space dimensions but always flowing like water (orgasmic) instead of rocketing into space (phallic) as “eVe” describes from “inside the closet.”

While I’m proud to say my film was made “like a girl” as that popular hashtag proudly proclaims – I’m almost tempted to ask the audience to consider my innovative storytelling “as if” this were directed by one of several guy filmmakers who’ve experimented this way, but with larger budgets but perhaps a bit less insight about the female nature of this “orgasmic” storytelling style which, in my work, seeks to flow poetic, liquid, music.

It is, in fact, I guarantee you, a different type of “orgasm.”

As my movie does include a theme + dedication to victims of violence against the LGBTQ community, women, black individuals + communities, indigenous individuals + communities … and … AND : our oceans, our mother Earth, wildlife – especially Sea-Life (most feminine) – I did portray an act of violence, but I was cognizant of telling the story of the movie in a manner I described onscreen as ‘orgasmic’ existing alongside most storytelling which is often “phallic.”

I posit that both ‘orgasmic’ + ‘phallic’ storytelling can ( and must ) exist inter-dependently in our Arts + Culture.

I found myself having to not only “shatter glass ceilings” + “break sound-barriers” – but I also had to “break” some storytelling / cinematic / music ‘ rules ‘ –
in order to tell my ‘love-triangle’ ‘love-is-love – story’ : AUTHENTICALLY.

This wasn’t going to be structured like other movies – this “herstory” needed something from me + “she” is composed of the twin-Tao-yin-yang characters : “eVe” + “Lila.” “She” wrote herself, directed herself.

SO – my “Declaration of IndiePenDance™ re – EVOL ution ™ femt0™studi0 ” has evolved, organically – out of necessity – into a counter-culture womanifest0™ ” ©

An all female, openly LGBTQIA crew in 2013 was VERY NEW (still rare) – if we were not ‘the first’ – we are definitely among the very first –

Eyes widened whenever I floated the idea. Also pushback – pushed back — on a variety of levels.Sigh.

Some men “mansplained” – my idea was discriminatory. Others proudly displayed their self-hatred through open sexism, racism, homophobia, climate-denying biases, which was – briefly surprising but eventually – worthless, because hate, though ‘loud’ – is such a drab, useless – one way ticket.

Recently, I became aware of a “mini-genre” to which my “eVe” belongs – and by that I mean – movies which explore the internalized concepts of various religious “eves” – in the context of secular, colloquial (not biblical) culture.

As my Master’s degree incorporated both Anthropology+ Performance Arts – I tend to “study” culture – even while I’m creating it.

I’ve noticed + personally experienced – the regulations + limitations placed on HER-stories – the ” ‘slut-shaming” of “eVe” ‘ – which has : palpable, real-life consequence for most women, girls, feminine males + wildlife (especially Sea-Life , most feminine) — with it’s victims buried deep in the roots of most cultures.

Shaming-eVe :

When looking “in the closet” of any given Culture – if we venture to explore past the climate-denial, past homophobia and racism – we’ll find misogyny – hiding – way – WAY … at the back of that closet – where most of us, even women, are unaware of the insidious odor seeping deep :

” into the fabric – it’s in the stitches”© as my protagonist eVe™ discovers.

Misogynysuspicion hatred of all things femme, wild , uncontrollable, the soft-strength, the innocence – the vulnerability …

including Nature, feminine girls, masculine girls, feminine boys, water, fluid sexuality + gender, wildlife, Sea-Life, cetaceans … “all are snaking along … slithering in + out of the multi-verse like the proverbial snake swallowing her own tail “© … all included … on that spectrum

All that “femme” – is feared by the toxic entity which has hounded Humanity for eons – I’ll name it here : “that which believes it must control others or die.” That toxin can be present in women too.

My “eVe” spends a good bit of the movie “trapped” indoors and she wisely uses some of that time – exploring the “closet.”

eVe “speaks truth to power” when she discovers “in the closet” – that “Shame” is misogyny’s “favorite weapon – the ultimate WMD? ” ©

My team and I are SO PROUD to be considered for the 2020 nominations.

It’s beyond ego, it’s a form of healing.

Thank you.

For Your Consideration

I discussed my movie as ‘ archetypal fable’ – in a 2019 Interview – before I ever saw the other “eve” reference movies

The project was made partly in response to my own Me-Too experiences (and that of fellow female artists + craftspersons).

I believe it’s impossible to fully comprehend what it’s like to be female – or LGBTQ – in the context of cultural biases + expectations toward – “female essence ” (“in all 6 billion gender expressions”© ) – without exploring the internalized cultural influences of – the “myth” of “eve” — and as I’ve posited in the film – equally important – Eve’s twinwhom we call “Lila” representingthe myth of Lillith.”

Furthermore, in understanding the ‘female experience’ – I truly believe that men, and ‘ male-identifying ‘ persons (some of whom, are biologically ‘female’) – will greatly benefit, resulting in the betterment of our blue-planet and ‘every inter-dependent living being’ ©

Those espousing hateful views towards people – or environmental conservancy – often cite economics + productivity as excuses for exclusionary actions. In fact, hate, exclusion + climate denial are completelyun-productive for society + for the planet.

It’s pure economics if one needs that sort of excuse. Discriminatory, hateful, wasteful energy create nothing except toxins + problems .

We already have a surplus of those.

This planet needs solutions that heal our problems. More than ever I believe education + quality communication skills are the universal “solvent” whereby we can dissolve + detoxify global cultures from such maladies.

In fact, my ” feMt0™studi0 AquaCultureZ™ “© which are ” Authentic Artisanal Farm To Table Indie Movies , Music, Books ™ —

– surviving independently, indigenous + sustainable – like an endangered species ( along with all other endangered species wildlife, Sea-Life, and the working class / middle class in every economy ) – on gasps of oxygen –



Moving Forward :

I didn’t want to make a film or album that I’d already seen before.
I posit that both ‘orgasmic’ + ‘phallic’ storytelling can ( and must ) exist inter-dependently in our Arts + Culture.
I found myself having to break some storytelling / cinematic / music ‘rules ‘
in order to tell my ‘love-triangle’ ‘love-is-love – story’ : AUTHENTICALLY.
SO – my “Declaration of IndiePenDance™ re – EVOL ution ™ femt0™studi0 ” has evolved, organically – out of necessity – into a counter-culture womanifest0™ ” ©

in spite of the BigMoney$ in BigMedia$ – enacting a full on — GentrificationOfCulture™ by buying up / swallowing up – the arts, the media human culture ©

we are hand-made – on sustainable half-a- shoestring budgets – I’m hoping that the Academy considers my written request to create a new category for this budget level –

hand-made by an artist – with a crew of fellow artists + craftspersons (not a corporation) positing this idea :

” LOVE is good for the economy – we are MakinALivinNotAKillin™ “©

Which Should be a relief for some economists arguing with haters + abusers of power!

In my movie – my lead female protagonist – ‘eVe’ – posits new ideas to the male protagonist – ‘doctor Goddard / aka ‘god.’

“eVe” speaks “truth to power” when she posits her thesis about a “fempowered™ fluid female economy based on water instead of Oil ” © :

” oil – that’s energy from death – but WATER is LIFE! waterways of the world wear LINGERIE not boxers! ” ©

“eVe” continues her argument in this debate towards her PHD :

“doc, we REALLY need our goddesses back” © in order to create a “fair sex ecology, economy, a fair sex state! the STATE wants a goddess – NEEDS a goddess – ” © ( Cali Lili Indies ™ “eVe N’ god this female is not yet rated ™”©)

Runaway With A Scholarship ™”

Just after graduating at an impossibly early age, having been skipped several grades, earned scholarships to pay my own tuition- with a Master’s Degree but no high school diploma – i stepped out into the “real world” only to discover that the “ISMs” I had believed to be “anachronISMs” – from history books racism, sexism, homophobia , climate denial – the “male gaze” – the “white gaze ” + other “gazes” – were still alive and finding their way back , insidiously, into our world consciousness, our current histories + HERstories.

The HERstory that we are living now – became a source of great worry to me. I had survived an abusive childhood + I know abuse when I see it.

Abuse of Power exhibited all the tell-tale signatures of Domestic Abuse, Child-Abuse — AND – Environmental Abuse — on a larger scale. The ‘family’ is ‘humanity’ and as my family of origin was never a safe place to be — I had already adopted “Humanity” as the family with whom I “belong.”

As a person born of vastly varied, multi-cultural heritages – I could see early on – that “tribalism” was a way to keep walls between people. Which is why I was a “global citizen” before that became a hashtag.

Born on the water,’ I’ve always felt – my “true heritage” – is water.

The two debating characters in my movie – “eVe” and “Doctor Goddard – are never – in the same room.

They are separated by “walls” – through which they “debate” – but their ultimate “union” is a form of “healing” … a little miracle.

SurFShackLoft™h20

Large Part of the purpose for those Projectwas my dedication to Sustainability + Green Practices.

My alarm at what’s happening to our planet – especially to our waters, ocean life, wildlife – all of which endanger human life + civilization, led me to take my own tiny climate- actions very early on.

In high school – I had designed a “SurFShackLoft™feMt0™studi0™h20 to be handbuilt very frugally – from biodegradable + upcycled materials.

Miraculously, this loft was built very economically but equally important – was combining that Sustainability Ethos – with my aesthetics + methodologies developed from early background in dance+theater – to create my signature style along with SustainableFilmSets™.

SustainableFilmSets™ ArtisanalFarmToTableProductions™

Without a doubt, my feMt0studi0 is – the – Innovator/ Pioneer in SustainableFilmSets™ + “ArtisanalFarm-To-TableProductions™”© Sending out the “pearls” from my little “AquaCultureZ™ Direct to the audience from VenusBeach™ CuttingEdgeOfThePacific™

An added touch of sweetness came when i had asked my local farmers to donate lemons, avocados, kale and flowers, along with other produce – to the creation of our GardenOfeVe™ film set — and they were THRILLED to do so.

“ToyBoxTech ™ ©

As I planned for the movie, I realized that while I don’t consider myself a “designer” – my script – born from story + music (the lyrics are written into my scripts) — but also from methodology + aesthetics, had already designed both sets + costumes.

I hadn’t intended to do this. It just created itself.

We built an “indoor garden” that looked as though a proverbial metaphorical “eVe” embodied by a contemporary – “surfer-chick-student-burlesque-dancer eVe” – had left somewhere in a hurry + quickly planted her own indoor ” victory garden” – out of survival.

This wasn’t fully autobiographical but it metaphorically mirrored my childhood.

Hard as it was to convey – not wanting to sound grandiose – I just knew in the heart of that little girl who survived with the aid of her dedication toward the arts + teachers encouraging her talent – that little girl (me) – her eyes – were witnessingwhat ‘eVe’ in my movie refers to – as ‘an ancient grief’ – her precious ‘global family’ – was falling victim to ancient abuse.

A ‘silent scream’ was often all that could be mustered by that little girl witnessing domestic violence at so young an age. That ‘silent scream’ sensation was returning but this time – ‘she’ – ‘the little girl me’ – was witnessing on a larger scale. Those who know about domestic abuse, know that the witnessing is even more destructive than most people know. Her childhood home was a place she had escaped – always imagining a beautiful world of possibility out here where ‘ the world is my living room’ © ( from one of the songs on the soundtrack ). Now THAT world was experiencing the ‘domestic abuse’ too.

I’m still discovering the movie and songs even now, perhaps the Project can be described as : “A Not-So-Silent Scream ™”© A project born from worry – destined for determination and resolve to be “HandMadeToMakeADifference ™.”©

“Odd Like Me”

eVe N’ god this female is not yet rated ™ ”

I’m in love.

With Movies

and her sister – Music.

“Pictures Words Music in Motion ™”

In addition to a ” Coming Out ” this movie, this music is intended as a “Coming In From The Cold.” 

All through the making of this project, I found myself fighting to save my studio and home in Venice Beach from the severe gentrification and homelessness growing all around me.

It was a familiar fight – against an unjust encroachment from abuse of power. Many times I found myself staying up all night figuring out legal documents, in order to fight back against Trump-style developers – while during the day – working to keep the project going. 

A familiar struggle, reminiscent of a childhood framed with terror but propelled by hope and love. A childhood and adult-hood experienced by many less fortunate than myself. 

Love.

It can heal everything.

I learned that early in life. 

It’s odd, like me, earning a Masters’ degree (NYU) with no high-school diploma, having been skipped several grades directly into University. Odd – like me. My fellow students in the Masters’ program were already professors in other countries who had done all they could, to come to America, to study at NYU. I was a kid with no high school diploma – and they were grown-up professors. Odd, like me. I often think about them now, back in their countries and what they must think of America now.  

Having survived an abusive childhood – I was dedicated to the arts and grateful for the “shelter” I could find in my deep love / passion for the arts and my teachers, who’d encouraged my work. 

Dance was my first love – along with her twin – music. Then I discovered their sisters –  theater and cinema. Along with the support of my teachers, these ladies “saved my life.” 

Alone with my dreams, walking the pavement of NYC streets, afraid to go home on the subway until 

late at night, I learned my craft comforted by the shelter of dance classes with Broadway Pros, art house cinema screens, and haunting legacy of timeless masterpieces echoing from the halls of every Manhattan museum and library.

My teachers were angels + allies in my “dreams come true” and thanks to them, and to my love – I won scholarships, was skipped grades and offered a scholarship to NYU where I earned my Masters’ Degree at a very young age.  

One of my report cards described me as a “runaway imagination” and of course, I imagined my imagination running away and I myself became a “runaway with a scholarship.”

I caught a wave + scraped together my “half a shoestring” budget, built my tiny “green” grassroots, up-cycled, recycled, mostly “off the grid” floating film + music Tiny SurfLoft On The Water in Venice Beach, hand-picked my team + went to work !

I had saved up lemonade-stand, babysitting, yoga teacher + acting gig earnings and my hand-built studio and methodologies as a matter of following a course I had set, upon navigating my way from graduating with a Master’s Degree at an impossibly young age. There was a virtual drummer playing an indigenous soundtrack to my life and — I was listening and following the steps. The ocean was an important core for me and I had dedicated my artistry toward creating my own style of “AquaCulture.

I likened it to building a “an oyster-pearl-farm” and my projects would encourage audiences to “sip the oyster savour the pearls .”©

My projects are :

HandMade 2 Make A Difference with ToyBoxTechnology ™ ” 

Riding the subways alone at too young an age, doing all I could not to go home – I found myself “living at” all my dance classes in private studios on additional dance scholarships, then “living at” the museums and libraries of NYC – kept me busy, along with part-time babysitting and other jobs to pay for anything scholarships didn’t cover. 

So …  I just …  – never had time – to explore / learn about my own sexuality.

By the time I did learn about it – I was married to my much older male partner, and then BOOM – one day – I FELL —  in love with a girl. 

It felt CRAZY –  

But it was also – BEYOND GREAT !

The LOVE I had for dance, and the arts – had now come full circle into bloom. 

I was blooming

My amazing male partner – reflected this too. He said – you are more YOU now. 

I had a lot of figuring out to do.

First — I had to figure out – WHY – did I feel as though I was SUPPOSED to be upset?

I DID agonize about –

feel GUILTY about it —

but I HAD to ask – WHY?

That’s when it came to me – the title of one of the soundtrack songs + a work of art I released with the project :

“We Don’t Fall in Love, We Rise ™”

Little did I know how many times I would repeat that to myself + others.

We had a lot of figuring out to do. Luckily – I was and am still – married to an amazing human being. 

Well, of course – I was growing up – growing into Me

Along with this personal growth, came my awareness of what was happening in the 21st Century world at large. 

My personal anguish into ecstasy and my growing deep concerns for the future of Humanity / Mother Earth as an “Endangered Species” became so agonizing –  that my only way to deal with anxieties about what I saw happening to this planet in the 21st Century while I was literally “blooming” personally – was to speak up and speak out – doing what I do best. 

Suddenly I KNEW that there were people who were experiencing the same “awakenings” about their sexuality but who were living in repressive cultures – and I wanted to reach out to them – to hear THEIR stories – and tell them it would be ok – share my experiences with them –  when I first began visualizing this project in 2010.

Although part of my anguish about the LGBTQ community was brought on by learning about the story of Brittany Cosby and Crystal Jackson who were “killed for kissing”© as well as that of Matthew Wayne Shepard – all of whom the movie is dedicated on-screen (dedicated to several communities) … — never did I imagine, of course, that we’d be experiencing all of this today – in 2019. 

So many of my posts regarding this project were aimed at persons who lived in other ( more repressive ) cultures and dictatorships. 

And here we are, ladies and gentlemen. 

Here – we – are. 

2019

A ” Coming Out ” and a  “Coming In From The Cold.”  

I hoped to release a “healing balm” for the “global family” –  at the intersections of LGBTQIA communities and my growing concerns for inter-related social justice crises such as – reproductive rights / women’s rights, violence against LGBTQ and female communities, Indigenous People’s and Black Lives Matter and Climate Change / endangered species. 

As intended – this movie, soundtrack and everything my feMt0™studi0 has been working on since inception in 2012 has already reached selected but passionate audiences from Los Angeles to Lagos, Uganda to Agra, Mali, to Manhattan — 

My wish after graduating – was to create an international – inter-disciplinary – multi-gender – mixed orientation team – in order to reach domestic + global audiences, without the “Over-Lords” of corporate media, stifling the creativity my teachers had encouraged in me. 

Much to my surprise – I got a bit of that wish with the limited releases of this project and my first Youtube music video “Election Train”  leading up to the movie. I had taken some time from the creation of the movie – to make the music video in order to support Obama’s re-election. 

I am REALLY WISHING that with an acknowledgement from YOU — that this project can TRAVEL FARTHER – and reach MANY MORE people who might be comforted by it’s message of acceptance and LOVE IS LOVE – along with being entertained by the work itself

Creating high quality cinema and music – was of utmost importance along with the “message” of the story. Excellence and Craft is a must. 

I was very much aware of ‘composing’ + ‘designing’ along with screenplay-writing, directing, acting, along with rapping-singing+producing – so there’s definitely a ’21st-Century-Girl-rapper-rock-band‘ – aesthetic at work here . The wardrobe was a “meditation on mens-wear”© + I had imagined it could be a clothing line someday! This was also based on an exploration of “the male gaze” + “the white gaze.”

‘Culture is Nutrition meets Environment …’ ©

‘We Consume it + sometimes unwittingly, like the air we breathe, we consume by OSMOSIS …’©

Lovers of Movies + Music as well as – Free-speech a Free-Press, Journalism + uh – Basic Freedoms of Democracy might do the Culture + the Planet ( ourselves ) a favor – if we simply support an authentic indie artisanal “maker” like myself and my team.

I’m not against big budget films – I often love them!

And – I’d like to find more opportunities to work in them as an actress – because the current system is one big roadblock.

I just need a bit of “oxygen” – support from my community + from the Culture – to do what I do at my Sustainable femt0 ™studi0 : ” IndiGoGreen™ DreamBigTinyFootPrintZ™” we dream big + leave tiny footprints”©

Often , I liken my signature artisan-made process to “farm to table” + “Aquaculture.”

There’s a scene in Billy Wilder’s movie “Sabrina” where Audrey Hepburn as Sabrina , having been to the Sorbonne – is able to cobble together a feast – from just a few eggs + crackers + milk … – THAT’S my aesthetics

Yes I’m mixing metaphors when I say I’m allowing the “AquaCulturalZ™ Oyster-Pearls to “vine-ripen” + then when we release a project – I aim to “nourish” through “pictures words music in motion ™” encouraging Audiences to :

“sip the oysterZ savor the pearlZ ™ “©

Every day at my ocean studio – I send out RIPPLES on the water – wishing for love and peace in the world …

My most effective “Ripple” is this move, this album … –

I hope that your acknowledgement — will help this Ripple travel much farther than I can get it to go on my own … 

It’s funny how sometimes we have to do what GingerRogers described along the lines of “dancing Backwards In High Heels ” –  in order to move forward one step.

She takes her baby steps,
BackWardsInHighHeels “©

” and though she be but little, she is fierce ” – (Shakespeare ) 

this quote is invoked in one of my favorite true-life stories about the great ” seabiscuit ” –
a story warming my heart from the very beginning of this journey with my own movie –  Tiny Budgets + tiny teams – uphill climbs – hopes + dreams –

‘ She KNOWS
she’s the Dark Horse here –
but darkness
she doesn’t fear

+ Oh she loves to run…

My genuine aim is to:

” nourish ”  through

” Pictures

Words

Music In Motion ” ™

Bon Apetit !

“We Don’t Fall in Love,

We Rise ™ “©


Truli© Cali Lili

2019🏝️ interview :
https://medium.com/@mondofilm/interview-with-cali-lili-from-eve-n-god-this-female-is-not-yet-rated-6d50611b758e

2017 🏝️interview :
http://www.wearemovingstories.com/we-are-moving-stories-films/2017/6/21/eve-n-god-this-female-is-not-yet-rated

Post Script :

GirlTheWorld™

© Cali Lili ;

My process is based on my methodologies in my book ‘The Declaration Of IndiePenDance™’ where I explore my film-making+music-making approach – I call it c.lili™ ‘s CynAesthetiX™ and it includes a variety of innovations in cinematic+music aesthetics.

As a young actress who’s taken the time to respect the history / HERstory of my craft – from the craftspersons’ perspective – I know that ‘innovation’ rests upon the past + is a bridge to the future.

With My Sisters – For My Sisters : in my recent writings and explorations about feminism — I am finding it crucial for us to find out – not so much why men hurt women – but instead, why some women – hurt women –

including the fact that often, we women, hurt ourselves, it’s a vicious cycle – and by hurting our sisters, we are expressing our self hatred …

I explored this – but it was not until VERY recently that I fully understood the depth of how these incidents shape us from childhood, into our teenage years, school experiences and then –

importantly, as we enter the professional world and encounter the competitive forces from our sisters, which often lead women to do unspeakable things – things they write about and rail against as #feminists – but which they do to each other, sometimes unconsciously …

I completed my movie + album while continuing essays and posts about what I would come to call the “Gentrification of Culture ™ “© referring to the intellectual property theft and secret exclusionary behaviors in the most unlikely corners of Arts and Culture

As we know, our work as feminists – and feminism can be fragile, as the world is often cruel to women who speak out, we often need each other — a form of Stockholm-Syndrome style bond out of necessity … so now the “famous feminists” can become the new bullies, having internalized the misogyny — perpetuating the predatory abuse of power — which is why I don’t often avail myself of friendships that are based in “need” or which arise out of hardships like global misogyny …

But there is a bond among us sisters and I always hold a wishful hope that women / girls I encounter will understand the need for true friendship, genuine caring, listening to each other — behaving towards our sisters in ways we wish to be treated … Unfortunately though, I’m going to say it here, and elsewhere – we often miss that mark.

I’m sorry to have to say it, sorrier to have experienced it, but damnit – we need to do better with each other. “Mean Girl Culture Cool” is often invoked when women / girls are acting all “empowered” – but of course that’s just stupid and self-defeating. We must do better.

Sisters – we really must. I offer the project below – which is the first in a trilogy on the subject. This project was a gift I made with my sisters, for my sisters all over the world. We might have been the first AllFemaleCrew as a production team – but we were certainly among the very first ever and I am certain we were a catalyst.

The Project is not easy to pigeonhole – and that’s true to form. I never wanted to make a movie I’ve already seen anywhere else.

One could describe this movie as :

A meditation on ‘male-gaze’ – ‘white-gaze’ – ‘mens-wear’ + other ‘ISMs’….

Or

“A Not So Silent Scream ” ©

I’m still discovering it myself.

I offer it up and hope it reaches both Sisters and Brothers too

Together – we really must GirlTheWorld™ – this is why I made this project – I believe this is how “we shall over-come” our challenges – the ISMS – racism, sexism, homophobia and including climate denial.

I believe honoring the “Sacred Feminine” – the Female – the WomanKind on MotherEarth is the main component of Healing this BluePlanet – our WildLife our SeaLife and our Humanity ” © Cali Lili all rights reserved

Ladies + Gentlemen

Humbly

For Your Consideration :

Our Oscars 2020 Contender

In These Categories:

Best Actress

Best Actor

Best Director

Original Screenplay

Original Song

Best Picture

United We Thrive
Divided We Fall
For AnyThing

DaysOfeVe™☯️

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interviews

with Cali Lili

🎙️2017

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🎙️ 2019 On Medium :

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“in the closet of #culture behind #racism #homophobia + #climate denial we find #misogyny (hatred of all things #femme #wild + free) so deep in the fabric, it’s in the stitches”© #CaliLili #AllFemaleCrew #eVeNgodThisFemaleIsNotYetRated™☯️ “

” dream big tiny footprintZ ™ © CaliLiliIndies™

PLEASE HANDLE WITH CARE

This Project is Hand-Made with 100 % Organic Hearts and Souls. HandMadeToMakeADifference™

Dear Ladies + Gentlemen,

We are SO PROUD to share

The HERstory of

Our Oscars 2020 Contender:

2021 / 2022 Update : this innovative project is featured in exciting upcoming documentaries by other producers and we are in pre-production on my next indie movie + album … all TBA

In 2012 I set out to make a sustainable, green, upcycled, lgbtqia , interracial love story – an – all- female-crew motion picture —

with — an original, eclectic soundtrack

much of it to be shot + recorded on a floating film set

and surrounding Venice Beach “hood” near my “AquaCultureZ™ WaterGarden™ feMt0™studi0”

Upon graduating early with a Master’s Degree from NYU, then entering the life of a “working actress” I learned most roles offered to girls + women (except a lucky few) were too often broadcasting degrading messages about us.

I tried to “adjust” a couple of the early roles – to balance ‘ the power in the frame.’ Despite the content of any given dialogue or role, I worked to imbue the character with strength.

I was beginning to get offered somewhat lucrative roles, I was more than willing to work hard – “work my way up.” The problem with that plan – is summarized by the “MeToo” movement, which is not just about inappropriate sexual innuendo, but psychological abuse leading to agony, resulting in self-doubt.

It’s also an Economics problem, with roadblocks held in place by threads of racism, sexism , homophobia , climate-ignorance in a gate-keeping culture – when all I wanted was to excel in the profession to which I’d dedicated myself whole-heartedly.

I’d been warned about this environment by older actors ( not actresses ) but assumed times had changed so I walked blindly into an environment reminiscent of a bygone era that had never updated it’s own “operating system.”

There I was with all this 21st Century software but there was nothing to run it.

How does a professional, work their way up such a slippery ladder? Perhaps economic inequality is sourced in such pathologies?

Until #MeToo became a hashtag – I’ll venture to guess that most women suffered under the weight of judgement by their families, friends and self-criticism about why they hadn’t progressed further despite their talent and drive. The worst part, is not being supported by “sisters” of a sorority I feel could be so comforting – and even worse, navigating a hyper-competitive “pigeons-for-scraps” culture based in scarcity where ideas and intellectual property can be so easily appropriated by those with power, harvested from those without.

I’ll venture to guess we all felt as though it was just happening to us alone. Similar to the “Occupancy Wall Street” awareness – when people realized that getting their degrees and working hard was not enough in an economy rigged for the 1 percent.

Even if I’d been willing to be willing on whatever levels of “consent” – I’d just come from surviving an abusive childhood – literally “rescued” by my passion for acting , dance, arts , learning – and my teachers who saw the talent, had invested their care in that little girl rushing through the streets of Manhattan – from dance class to acting class to anthropology and science classrooms.

They’d invested their own passion for education – in that little girl – me.

I couldn’t let them down and I couldn’t let down other little girls who might someday see a movie that I was in – and when she sees me in that movie, she sees herself and when she sees herself, I want her to feel strong, not helpless. I want “her” to feel proud of “HERstory.”

After turning down three lucrative roles in a row, especially after bumping into one of the producers I’d turned down at a social event – noticing his “WHO are YOU to turn ME down glare ” –

I sucked it up – GLARED BACK with a smile –

and THAT was the moment I learned :

WHO I AM ? Is a girl who won’t get bullied – ever again.

Who I am – is a girl choosing integrity over expediency – no matter how ambitious I may be.

And I’m ambitious.

In that moment – I realized – the only way to hopefully “work my way up” – without dipping way down into the “MeToo” swamp I found myself wading through – was to make my own film and album – with an all female crew – so that I could speak to “the little girl in everyone”© – and – simply do what I do best : “pictures words music in motion ™” ©


I also understood that it wasn’t “men” – it wasn’t “directors” or “producers” — it was the Culture at large. Certainly I’d run into plenty of women who had internalized misogyny to enact upon sisters and there was plenty of it in every profession. I had to find a way to work in my chosen profession, to which I had already dedicated – so I chose – to literally “be the change I wished to see” as the saying goes.

Having studied anthropology along with intercultural, interdisciplinary performance modalities – I felt uniquely equipped to grapple with these new insights – even though, they’d prove beyond challenging to implement. I’d be needing some miracles and tons of hard work integrating the education + early work experience I’d earned – with the realities of making a movie and album. A tall order.

I had saved up babysitting, lemonade stand, acting gigs and yoga teacher earnings and these were “startup funds” which I partly used to create our first music video “ElectionTrain” made in urgent support for Obama. Then we began pre-pre-production on the feature motion picture :

“eVe N’god this female is not yet rated ™©

FOR YOUR CONSIDERATION

DaysOfeVe™☯️

“Pictures Words Music In Motion™”

I didn’t want to make a film or album that I’d already seen before.

I was aware that most noted ‘counter-culture’ revolutions in media had previously involved an examination but also ultimate glorification of violence + what is sometimes described as ‘toxic masculinity.’

The film prologue introduces my storytelling concepts which I’ve been referring to, as : “orgasmic” instead of “phallic.” I’m positing that my liquid, fluid, music-based, “orgasmic” storytelling journey to tell the “love-is-love-triangle-story” of eVe, Lila + Doctor Goddard – can exist in harmony with the more normative “phallic” cinematic storytelling styles most cultures expect in a narrative movie. While other directors have experimented with dabbling in it – I feel my movie, while working within the constraints of a modest budget, fully explores this type of storytelling, not with outer special effects, but with inner ones.

The movie draws us “under” and “into” the deep end of the pool, the pond, the ocean as if vacillating between conscious + unconscious time-space dimensions but always flowing like water (orgasmic) instead of rocketing into space (phallic) as “eVe” describes from “inside the closet.”

While I’m proud to say my film was made “like a girl” as that popular hashtag proudly proclaims – I’m almost tempted to ask the audience to consider my innovative storytelling “as if” this were directed by one of several guy filmmakers who’ve experimented this way, but with larger budgets but perhaps a bit less insight about the female nature of this “orgasmic” storytelling style which, in my work, seeks to flow poetic, liquid, music.

It is, in fact, I guarantee you, a different type of “orgasm.”

As my movie does include a theme + dedication to victims of violence against the LGBTQ community, women, black individuals + communities, indigenous individuals + communities … and … AND : our oceans, our mother Earth, wildlife – especially Sea-Life (most feminine) – I did portray an act of violence, but I was cognizant of telling the story of the movie in a manner I described onscreen as ‘orgasmic’ existing alongside most storytelling which is often “phallic.”

I posit that both ‘orgasmic’ + ‘phallic’ storytelling can ( and must ) exist inter-dependently in our Arts + Culture.

I found myself having to not only “shatter glass ceilings” + “break sound-barriers” – but I also had to “break” some storytelling / cinematic / music ‘ rules ‘ –
in order to tell my ‘love-triangle’ ‘love-is-love – story’ : AUTHENTICALLY.

This wasn’t going to be structured like other movies – this “herstory” needed something from me + “she” is composed of the twin-Tao-yin-yang characters : “eVe” + “Lila.” “She” wrote herself, directed herself.

SO – my “Declaration of IndiePenDance™ re – EVOL ution ™ femt0™studi0 ” has evolved, organically – out of necessity – into a counter-culture womanifest0™ ” ©

An all female, openly LGBTQIA crew in 2013 was VERY NEW (still rare) – if we were not ‘the first’ – we are definitely among the very first –

Eyes widened whenever I floated the idea. Also pushback – pushed back — on a variety of levels.Sigh.

Some men “mansplained” – my idea was discriminatory. Others proudly displayed their self-hatred through open sexism, racism, homophobia, climate-denying biases, which was – briefly surprising but eventually – worthless, because hate, though ‘loud’ – is such a drab, useless – one way ticket.

Recently, I became aware of a “mini-genre” to which my “eVe” belongs – and by that I mean – movies which explore the internalized concepts of various religious “eves” – in the context of secular, colloquial (not biblical) culture.

As my Master’s degree incorporated both Anthropology+ Performance Arts – I tend to “study” culture – even while I’m creating it.

I’ve noticed + personally experienced – the regulations + limitations placed on HER-stories – the ” ‘slut-shaming” of “eVe” ‘ – which has : palpable, real-life consequence for most women, girls, feminine males + wildlife (especially Sea-Life , most feminine) — with it’s victims buried deep in the roots of most cultures.

Shaming-eVe :

When looking “in the closet” of any given Culture – if we venture to explore past the climate-denial, past homophobia and racism – we’ll find misogyny – hiding – way – WAY … at the back of that closet – where most of us, even women, are unaware of the insidious odor seeping deep :

” into the fabric – it’s in the stitches”© as my protagonist eVe™ discovers.

Misogynysuspicion hatred of all things femme, wild , uncontrollable, the soft-strength, the innocence – the vulnerability …

including Nature, feminine girls, masculine girls, feminine boys, water, fluid sexuality + gender, wildlife, Sea-Life, cetaceans … “all are snaking along … slithering in + out of the multi-verse like the proverbial snake swallowing her own tail “© … all included … on that spectrum

All that “femme” – is feared by the toxic entity which has hounded Humanity for eons – I’ll name it here : “that which believes it must control others or die.” That toxin can be present in women too.

My “eVe” spends a good bit of the movie “trapped” indoors and she wisely uses some of that time – exploring the “closet.”

eVe “speaks truth to power” when she discovers “in the closet” – that “Shame” is misogyny’s “favorite weapon – the ultimate WMD? ” ©

My team and I are SO PROUD to be considered for the 2020 nominations.

It’s beyond ego, it’s a form of healing.

Thank you.

For Your Consideration

I discussed my movie as ‘ archetypal fable’ – in a 2019 Interview – before I ever saw the other “eve” reference movies

The project was made partly in response to my own Me-Too experiences (and that of fellow female artists + craftspersons).

I believe it’s impossible to fully comprehend what it’s like to be female – or LGBTQ – in the context of cultural biases + expectations toward – “female essence ” (“in all 6 billion gender expressions”© ) – without exploring the internalized cultural influences of – the “myth” of “eve” — and as I’ve posited in the film – equally important – Eve’s twinwhom we call “Lila” representingthe myth of Lillith.”

Furthermore, in understanding the ‘female experience’ – I truly believe that men, and ‘ male-identifying ‘ persons (some of whom, are biologically ‘female’) – will greatly benefit, resulting in the betterment of our blue-planet and ‘every inter-dependent living being’ ©

Those espousing hateful views towards people – or environmental conservancy – often cite economics + productivity as excuses for exclusionary actions. In fact, hate, exclusion + climate denial are completelyun-productive for society + for the planet.

It’s pure economics if one needs that sort of excuse. Discriminatory, hateful, wasteful energy create nothing except toxins + problems .

We already have a surplus of those.

This planet needs solutions that heal our problems. More than ever I believe education + quality communication skills are the universal “solvent” whereby we can dissolve + detoxify global cultures from such maladies.

In fact, my ” feMt0™studi0 AquaCultureZ™ “© which are ” Authentic Artisanal Farm To Table Indie Movies , Music, Books ™ —

– surviving independently, indigenous + sustainable – like an endangered species ( along with all other endangered species wildlife, Sea-Life, and the working class / middle class in every economy ) – on gasps of oxygen –



Moving Forward :

I didn’t want to make a film or album that I’d already seen before.
I posit that both ‘orgasmic’ + ‘phallic’ storytelling can ( and must ) exist inter-dependently in our Arts + Culture.
I found myself having to break some storytelling / cinematic / music ‘rules ‘
in order to tell my ‘love-triangle’ ‘love-is-love – story’ : AUTHENTICALLY.
SO – my “Declaration of IndiePenDance™ re – EVOL ution ™ femt0™studi0 ” has evolved, organically – out of necessity – into a counter-culture womanifest0™ ” ©

in spite of the BigMoney$ in BigMedia$ – enacting a full on — GentrificationOfCulture™ by buying up / swallowing up – the arts, the media human culture ©

we are hand-made – on sustainable half-a- shoestring budgets – I’m hoping that the Academy considers my written request to create a new category for this budget level –

hand-made by an artist – with a crew of fellow artists + craftspersons (not a corporation) positing this idea :

” LOVE is good for the economy – we are MakinALivinNotAKillin™ “©

Which Should be a relief for some economists arguing with haters + abusers of power!

In my movie – my lead female protagonist – ‘eVe’ – posits new ideas to the male protagonist – ‘doctor Goddard / aka ‘god.’

“eVe” speaks “truth to power” when she posits her thesis about a “fempowered™ fluid female economy based on water instead of Oil ” © :

” oil – that’s energy from death – but WATER is LIFE! waterways of the world wear LINGERIE not boxers! ” ©

“eVe” continues her argument in this debate towards her PHD :

“doc, we REALLY need our goddesses back” © in order to create a “fair sex ecology, economy, a fair sex state! the STATE wants a goddess – NEEDS a goddess – ” © ( Cali Lili Indies ™ “eVe N’ god this female is not yet rated ™”©)

Runaway With A Scholarship ™”

Just after graduating at an impossibly early age, having been skipped several grades, earned scholarships to pay my own tuition- with a Master’s Degree but no high school diploma – i stepped out into the “real world” only to discover that the “ISMs” I had believed to be “anachronISMs” – from history books racism, sexism, homophobia , climate denial – the “male gaze” – the “white gaze ” + other “gazes” – were still alive and finding their way back , insidiously, into our world consciousness, our current histories + HERstories.

The HERstory that we are living now – became a source of great worry to me. I had survived an abusive childhood + I know abuse when I see it.

Abuse of Power exhibited all the tell-tale signatures of Domestic Abuse, Child-Abuse — AND – Environmental Abuse — on a larger scale. The ‘family’ is ‘humanity’ and as my family of origin was never a safe place to be — I had already adopted “Humanity” as the family with whom I “belong.”

As a person born of vastly varied, multi-cultural heritages – I could see early on – that “tribalism” was a way to keep walls between people. Which is why I was a “global citizen” before that became a hashtag.

Born on the water,’ I’ve always felt – my “true heritage” – is water.

The two debating characters in my movie – “eVe” and “Doctor Goddard – are never – in the same room.

They are separated by “walls” – through which they “debate” – but their ultimate “union” is a form of “healing” … a little miracle.

SurFShackLoft™h20

Large Part of the purpose for those Projectwas my dedication to Sustainability + Green Practices.

My alarm at what’s happening to our planet – especially to our waters, ocean life, wildlife – all of which endanger human life + civilization, led me to take my own tiny climate- actions very early on.

In high school – I had designed a “SurFShackLoft™feMt0™studi0™h20 to be handbuilt very frugally – from biodegradable + upcycled materials.

Miraculously, this loft was built very economically but equally important – was combining that Sustainability Ethos – with my aesthetics + methodologies developed from early background in dance+theater – to create my signature style along with SustainableFilmSets™.

SustainableFilmSets™ ArtisanalFarmToTableProductions™

Without a doubt, my feMt0studi0 is – the – Innovator/ Pioneer in SustainableFilmSets™ + “ArtisanalFarm-To-TableProductions™”© Sending out the “pearls” from my little “AquaCultureZ™ Direct to the audience from VenusBeach™ CuttingEdgeOfThePacific™

An added touch of sweetness came when i had asked my local farmers to donate lemons, avocados, kale and flowers, along with other produce – to the creation of our GardenOfeVe™ film set — and they were THRILLED to do so.

“ToyBoxTech ™ ©

As I planned for the movie, I realized that while I don’t consider myself a “designer” – my script – born from story + music (the lyrics are written into my scripts) — but also from methodology + aesthetics, had already designed both sets + costumes.

I hadn’t intended to do this. It just created itself.

We built an “indoor garden” that looked as though a proverbial metaphorical “eVe” embodied by a contemporary – “surfer-chick-student-burlesque-dancer eVe” – had left somewhere in a hurry + quickly planted her own indoor ” victory garden” – out of survival.

This wasn’t fully autobiographical but it metaphorically mirrored my childhood.

Hard as it was to convey – not wanting to sound grandiose – I just knew in the heart of that little girl who survived with the aid of her dedication toward the arts + teachers encouraging her talent – that little girl (me) – her eyes – were witnessingwhat ‘eVe’ in my movie refers to – as ‘an ancient grief’ – her precious ‘global family’ – was falling victim to ancient abuse.

A ‘silent scream’ was often all that could be mustered by that little girl witnessing domestic violence at so young an age. That ‘silent scream’ sensation was returning but this time – ‘she’ – ‘the little girl me’ – was witnessing on a larger scale. Those who know about domestic abuse, know that the witnessing is even more destructive than most people know. Her childhood home was a place she had escaped – always imagining a beautiful world of possibility out here where ‘ the world is my living room’ © ( from one of the songs on the soundtrack ). Now THAT world was experiencing the ‘domestic abuse’ too.

I’m still discovering the movie and songs even now, perhaps the Project can be described as : “A Not-So-Silent Scream ™”© A project born from worry – destined for determination and resolve to be “HandMadeToMakeADifference ™.”©

“Odd Like Me”

eVe N’ god this female is not yet rated ™ ”

I’m in love.

With Movies

and her sister – Music.

“Pictures Words Music in Motion ™”

In addition to a ” Coming Out ” this movie, this music is intended as a “Coming In From The Cold.” 

All through the making of this project, I found myself fighting to save my studio and home in Venice Beach from the severe gentrification and homelessness growing all around me.

It was a familiar fight – against an unjust encroachment from abuse of power. Many times I found myself staying up all night figuring out legal documents, in order to fight back against Trump-style developers – while during the day – working to keep the project going. 

A familiar struggle, reminiscent of a childhood framed with terror but propelled by hope and love. A childhood and adult-hood experienced by many less fortunate than myself. 

Love.

It can heal everything.

I learned that early in life. 

It’s odd, like me, earning a Masters’ degree (NYU) with no high-school diploma, having been skipped several grades directly into University. Odd – like me. My fellow students in the Masters’ program were already professors in other countries who had done all they could, to come to America, to study at NYU. I was a kid with no high school diploma – and they were grown-up professors. Odd, like me. I often think about them now, back in their countries and what they must think of America now.  

Having survived an abusive childhood – I was dedicated to the arts and grateful for the “shelter” I could find in my deep love / passion for the arts and my teachers, who’d encouraged my work. 

Dance was my first love – along with her twin – music. Then I discovered their sisters –  theater and cinema. Along with the support of my teachers, these ladies “saved my life.” 

Alone with my dreams, walking the pavement of NYC streets, afraid to go home on the subway until 

late at night, I learned my craft comforted by the shelter of dance classes with Broadway Pros, art house cinema screens, and haunting legacy of timeless masterpieces echoing from the halls of every Manhattan museum and library.

My teachers were angels + allies in my “dreams come true” and thanks to them, and to my love – I won scholarships, was skipped grades and offered a scholarship to NYU where I earned my Masters’ Degree at a very young age.  

One of my report cards described me as a “runaway imagination” and of course, I imagined my imagination running away and I myself became a “runaway with a scholarship.”

I caught a wave + scraped together my “half a shoestring” budget, built my tiny “green” grassroots, up-cycled, recycled, mostly “off the grid” floating film + music Tiny SurfLoft On The Water in Venice Beach, hand-picked my team + went to work !

I had saved up lemonade-stand, babysitting, yoga teacher + acting gig earnings and my hand-built studio and methodologies as a matter of following a course I had set, upon navigating my way from graduating with a Master’s Degree at an impossibly young age. There was a virtual drummer playing an indigenous soundtrack to my life and — I was listening and following the steps. The ocean was an important core for me and I had dedicated my artistry toward creating my own style of “AquaCulture.

I likened it to building a “an oyster-pearl-farm” and my projects would encourage audiences to “sip the oyster savour the pearls .”©

My projects are :

HandMade 2 Make A Difference with ToyBoxTechnology ™ ” 

Riding the subways alone at too young an age, doing all I could not to go home – I found myself “living at” all my dance classes in private studios on additional dance scholarships, then “living at” the museums and libraries of NYC – kept me busy, along with part-time babysitting and other jobs to pay for anything scholarships didn’t cover. 

So …  I just …  – never had time – to explore / learn about my own sexuality.

By the time I did learn about it – I was married to my much older male partner, and then BOOM – one day – I FELL —  in love with a girl. 

It felt CRAZY –  

But it was also – BEYOND GREAT !

The LOVE I had for dance, and the arts – had now come full circle into bloom. 

I was blooming

My amazing male partner – reflected this too. He said – you are more YOU now. 

I had a lot of figuring out to do.

First — I had to figure out – WHY – did I feel as though I was SUPPOSED to be upset?

I DID agonize about –

feel GUILTY about it —

but I HAD to ask – WHY?

That’s when it came to me – the title of one of the soundtrack songs + a work of art I released with the project :

“We Don’t Fall in Love, We Rise ™”

Little did I know how many times I would repeat that to myself + others.

We had a lot of figuring out to do. Luckily – I was and am still – married to an amazing human being. 

Well, of course – I was growing up – growing into Me

Along with this personal growth, came my awareness of what was happening in the 21st Century world at large. 

My personal anguish into ecstasy and my growing deep concerns for the future of Humanity / Mother Earth as an “Endangered Species” became so agonizing –  that my only way to deal with anxieties about what I saw happening to this planet in the 21st Century while I was literally “blooming” personally – was to speak up and speak out – doing what I do best. 

Suddenly I KNEW that there were people who were experiencing the same “awakenings” about their sexuality but who were living in repressive cultures – and I wanted to reach out to them – to hear THEIR stories – and tell them it would be ok – share my experiences with them –  when I first began visualizing this project in 2010.

Although part of my anguish about the LGBTQ community was brought on by learning about the story of Brittany Cosby and Crystal Jackson who were “killed for kissing”© as well as that of Matthew Wayne Shepard – all of whom the movie is dedicated on-screen (dedicated to several communities) … — never did I imagine, of course, that we’d be experiencing all of this today – in 2019. 

So many of my posts regarding this project were aimed at persons who lived in other ( more repressive ) cultures and dictatorships. 

And here we are, ladies and gentlemen. 

Here – we – are. 

2019

A ” Coming Out ” and a  “Coming In From The Cold.”  

I hoped to release a “healing balm” for the “global family” –  at the intersections of LGBTQIA communities and my growing concerns for inter-related social justice crises such as – reproductive rights / women’s rights, violence against LGBTQ and female communities, Indigenous People’s and Black Lives Matter and Climate Change / endangered species. 

As intended – this movie, soundtrack and everything my feMt0™studi0 has been working on since inception in 2012 has already reached selected but passionate audiences from Los Angeles to Lagos, Uganda to Agra, Mali, to Manhattan — 

My wish after graduating – was to create an international – inter-disciplinary – multi-gender – mixed orientation team – in order to reach domestic + global audiences, without the “Over-Lords” of corporate media, stifling the creativity my teachers had encouraged in me. 

Much to my surprise – I got a bit of that wish with the limited releases of this project and my first Youtube music video “Election Train”  leading up to the movie. I had taken some time from the creation of the movie – to make the music video in order to support Obama’s re-election. 

I am REALLY WISHING that with an acknowledgement from YOU — that this project can TRAVEL FARTHER – and reach MANY MORE people who might be comforted by it’s message of acceptance and LOVE IS LOVE – along with being entertained by the work itself

Creating high quality cinema and music – was of utmost importance along with the “message” of the story. Excellence and Craft is a must. 

I was very much aware of ‘composing’ + ‘designing’ along with screenplay-writing, directing, acting, along with rapping-singing+producing – so there’s definitely a ’21st-Century-Girl-rapper-rock-band‘ – aesthetic at work here . The wardrobe was a “meditation on mens-wear”© + I had imagined it could be a clothing line someday! This was also based on an exploration of “the male gaze” + “the white gaze.”

‘Culture is Nutrition meets Environment …’ ©

‘We Consume it + sometimes unwittingly, like the air we breathe, we consume by OSMOSIS …’©

Lovers of Movies + Music as well as – Free-speech a Free-Press, Journalism + uh – Basic Freedoms of Democracy might do the Culture + the Planet ( ourselves ) a favor – if we simply support an authentic indie artisanal “maker” like myself and my team.

I’m not against big budget films – I often love them!

And – I’d like to find more opportunities to work in them as an actress – because the current system is one big roadblock.

I just need a bit of “oxygen” – support from my community + from the Culture – to do what I do at my Sustainable femt0 ™studi0 : ” IndiGoGreen™ DreamBigTinyFootPrintZ™” we dream big + leave tiny footprints”©

Often , I liken my signature artisan-made process to “farm to table” + “Aquaculture.”

There’s a scene in Billy Wilder’s movie “Sabrina” where Audrey Hepburn as Sabrina , having been to the Sorbonne – is able to cobble together a feast – from just a few eggs + crackers + milk … – THAT’S my aesthetics

Yes I’m mixing metaphors when I say I’m allowing the “AquaCulturalZ™ Oyster-Pearls to “vine-ripen” + then when we release a project – I aim to “nourish” through “pictures words music in motion ™” encouraging Audiences to :

“sip the oysterZ savor the pearlZ ™ “©

Every day at my ocean studio – I send out RIPPLES on the water – wishing for love and peace in the world …

My most effective “Ripple” is this move, this album … –

I hope that your acknowledgement — will help this Ripple travel much farther than I can get it to go on my own … 

It’s funny how sometimes we have to do what GingerRogers described along the lines of “dancing Backwards In High Heels ” –  in order to move forward one step.

She takes her baby steps,
BackWardsInHighHeels “©

” and though she be but little, she is fierce ” – (Shakespeare ) 

this quote is invoked in one of my favorite true-life stories about the great ” seabiscuit ” –
a story warming my heart from the very beginning of this journey with my own movie –  Tiny Budgets + tiny teams – uphill climbs – hopes + dreams –

‘ She KNOWS
she’s the Dark Horse here –
but darkness
she doesn’t fear

+ Oh she loves to run…

My genuine aim is to:

” nourish ”  through

” Pictures

Words

Music In Motion ” ™

Bon Apetit !

“We Don’t Fall in Love,

We Rise ™ “©


Truli© Cali Lili

2019🏝️ interview :
https://medium.com/@mondofilm/interview-with-cali-lili-from-eve-n-god-this-female-is-not-yet-rated-6d50611b758e

2017 🏝️interview :
http://www.wearemovingstories.com/we-are-moving-stories-films/2017/6/21/eve-n-god-this-female-is-not-yet-rated

Post Script :

GirlTheWorld™

© Cali Lili ;

My process is based on my methodologies in my book ‘The Declaration Of IndiePenDance™’ where I explore my film-making+music-making approach – I call it c.lili™ ‘s CynAesthetiX™ and it includes a variety of innovations in cinematic+music aesthetics.

As a young actress who’s taken the time to respect the history / HERstory of my craft – from the craftspersons’ perspective – I know that ‘innovation’ rests upon the past + is a bridge to the future.

With My Sisters – For My Sisters : in my recent writings and explorations about feminism — I am finding it crucial for us to find out – not so much why men hurt women – but instead, why some women – hurt women –

including the fact that often, we women, hurt ourselves, it’s a vicious cycle – and by hurting our sisters, we are expressing our self hatred …

I explored this – but it was not until VERY recently that I fully understood the depth of how these incidents shape us from childhood, into our teenage years, school experiences and then –

importantly, as we enter the professional world and encounter the competitive forces from our sisters, which often lead women to do unspeakable things – things they write about and rail against as #feminists – but which they do to each other, sometimes unconsciously …

I completed my movie + album while continuing essays and posts about what I would come to call the “Gentrification of Culture ™ “© referring to the intellectual property theft and secret exclusionary behaviors in the most unlikely corners of Arts and Culture

As we know, our work as feminists – and feminism can be fragile, as the world is often cruel to women who speak out, we often need each other — a form of Stockholm-Syndrome style bond out of necessity … so now the “famous feminists” can become the new bullies, having internalized the misogyny — perpetuating the predatory abuse of power — which is why I don’t often avail myself of friendships that are based in “need” or which arise out of hardships like global misogyny …

But there is a bond among us sisters and I always hold a wishful hope that women / girls I encounter will understand the need for true friendship, genuine caring, listening to each other — behaving towards our sisters in ways we wish to be treated … Unfortunately though, I’m going to say it here, and elsewhere – we often miss that mark.

I’m sorry to have to say it, sorrier to have experienced it, but damnit – we need to do better with each other. “Mean Girl Culture Cool” is often invoked when women / girls are acting all “empowered” – but of course that’s just stupid and self-defeating. We must do better.

Sisters – we really must. I offer the project below – which is the first in a trilogy on the subject. This project was a gift I made with my sisters, for my sisters all over the world. We might have been the first AllFemaleCrew as a production team – but we were certainly among the very first ever and I am certain we were a catalyst.

The Project is not easy to pigeonhole – and that’s true to form. I never wanted to make a movie I’ve already seen anywhere else.

One could describe this movie as :

A meditation on ‘male-gaze’ – ‘white-gaze’ – ‘mens-wear’ + other ‘ISMs’….

Or

“A Not So Silent Scream ” ©

I’m still discovering it myself.

I offer it up and hope it reaches both Sisters and Brothers too

Together – we really must GirlTheWorld™ – this is why I made this project – I believe this is how “we shall over-come” our challenges – the ISMS – racism, sexism, homophobia and including climate denial.

I believe honoring the “Sacred Feminine” – the Female – the WomanKind on MotherEarth is the main component of Healing this BluePlanet – our WildLife our SeaLife and our Humanity ” © Cali Lili all rights reserved

Ladies + Gentlemen

Humbly

For Your Consideration :

Our Oscars 2020 Contender

In These Categories:

Best Actress

Best Actor

Best Director

Original Screenplay

Original Song

Best Picture

United We Thrive
Divided We Fall
For AnyThing

DaysOfeVe™☯️

Movie and Soundtrack Available WorldWide on
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movie + album

Now streaming :

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Google play movies

Vimeo

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music album soundtrack streaming everywhere worldwide

interviews

with Cali Lili

🎙️2017

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🎙️ 2019 On Medium :

Uncategorized

” Dream About a Dream About a Dream ” © cali lili “I listen to the voice of Dr. King because I love great music … ” #MLK #MartinLutherKing

Reprinted from 2013 when, we could never have imagined … 

Dream About A Dream, About A Dream ™ 

by ©Cali Lili 2011, 2014,2021

I Listen

To the Speeches of Dr. King

I Listen

To The Voice of Martin Luther King Jr. 

Because I love Great Music.

The Force and Lift of this Great Man’s Words,

This Great Man’s Spirit,

His Voice,

Undeniable.

The Great Mind of this Great Man,

Eternal.

Mother Earth

Is forever Blessed With our Fortune,

Martin Luther King Jr.  Lives

Among us, 

Still

Loves us,

So very much.

So,

One day,  

I had a Dream Too.

A Dream,

About A Dream,

About A Dream.

In that Dream, I heard the word :  “Woman” 

Spoken,

In that Great,

Voice,

The Voice of Justice.

“She” is Equal

In the Voice,Equal to “Man” and “Mankind.”

“She” is “Woman”

And Also

“She” Embodies

The Multiplicity of LGBT

The Blossoming Of Every Gender

Under The Civil Rights Rainbow™

“She” Bridges 

“She” Completes the “HerStory” 

In “HiStory”

Thus Embracing “Femme” in Every One.

I heard the words :   “Sisters” … and “SisterHood,”

Equal,

To the words “Brother” and “BrotherHood,”

Celebrating Every Gender Identity

On a Never Ending Spectrum 

Of Love Equals Love …

I Listen

To the Speeches of Dr. King

And I know 

That I hear him right.

~ ~ ~ ~ ~

The Chain of Human KIND is STRONGER …

                                           … than Our Weakest Links

Love MULTIPLIES EVEN When DIVIDED

~ ~ ~

My Rainbow Stand™

© 2013 by Cali Lili

HEY – RacisM, 

and your Syphilitic Siblings,

Misogyny (Hatred of all things FEMME)

Homophobes

Climate Deniers 

And Classist PLUTOCRACY,

You Tattered,

Metastasized,

Slow Rotting

BORING

Malignancies on the Flesh of Human Culture

Our Flesh is a Kaleidoscope of Colours and Textures

So many Languages born from Love

… that no Hate of Yours can EVER erase …

My Rainbow Stands™

Against the Twin Headed Monster of RacistMisogyny

My Rainbow Stands™ For Love 

My Rainbow Stands for Gender and Cultural Rights 2 Love, Live, and Walk In Liberty …

These RIGHTS … Include ECONOMIC RIGHTS

These RIGHTS ARE INALIENABLE 

The Right 2 LOVE

The RIGHT 2 LIVE

The RIGHT 2 WALK in LIBERTY

On OUR PLANET

2 The Haters …

Maligning African American Sisters & Brothers …

Or any Innocent Souls Anywhere …

… of any Gender, Belief or Creed …

To the Coward Bullies attacking my LGBT Sisters 

Next Door,

Or the Next State Over 

Or in the Next Continent …

LIFE is NOT about YOUR CREED …

It’s all about the Deeds … 

The Chain of Human Kindness is …

Stronger than our Weakest Links™

2 The Haters 

Spewing your UnWanted Advances onto

the Fair Sex and the Femme

To the GlobalFRATParties™ 

This 21st Century GlobalGirlZ™ Response : 

The “Pussy Riot”

Has ONLY just BEGUN

The Two Headed Moron of Racism & Misogyny is a Make-Shift Monster

Jerry-riggin’ embers from a limp-ing …  GlobalFRATParty™ …

Fanning dying flames from the ashes of Hate …

That Monster Stomps on People …

Flesh and Blood …

Humans Being …

 on a spinning ball that is hurling through space …

Humans …

Being … 

Lesbians,      

Gay Men,

Bi-Sexual Women and Men,  

Transgender Women and Men,    

HeteroSexuals ,                

Rainbow Hued Humans,

Black Hued Humans,                                                                        

Brown Hued Humans,

Terra Cotta Hued Humans,

Pink Humans, 

Peachy Yellow Hued Humans,

Translucent White Hued Humans,

Off-White Hued Humans …

With the RIGHT to be paid a FAIR LIVING WAGE and 2 GROW IT

The RIGHT to Live in a HOME of our OWN

The RIGHT to HEALTH CARE 

The RIGHT to EDUCATION

The RIGHT to PURSUE OUR OWN HAPPINESS

The RIGHT to ABOLISH SLAVERY 2 the PLUTOCRACY

This Place … is a Never-Ending Rainbow of Human Potential …

The “Two-Headed Monster” feeds on our vulnerabilities as a Global Culture …

This GlobalGirlZ™ Response :

Starve the Monster, Feed the People, And Love will Multiply …

Love Multiplies Even When Divided™ 

Cali Lili Indies Pictures Words Music In Motion

Art By the People For the People

WalkingLiberties™ a WalkingCollage:  

We Don’t FALL in LOVE We RISE ™

DAYS of EVE™ 

©Cali Lili™  2014

The GlobalFRATParty™ is OVER,

Humanity Must Grow …

As Sophisticated As Tech …

Or We Lose Both™

Meditations On my Oscars 2020 Contender

                                   eVe n’ god™

                     this Female is Not Yet Rated™

                  A Conversation, Long Overdue™

                We Don’t FALL in LOVE We RISE ™

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Soundtrack🎼
https://itunes.apple.com/us/album/this-female-is-not-yet-rated/1402313761

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2019  :
https://medium.com/@mondofilm/interview-with-cali-lili-from-eve-n-god-this-female-is-not-yet-rated-6d50611b758e

2017 ️  :
http://www.wearemovingstories.com/we-are-moving-stories-films/2017/6/21/eve-n-god-this-female-is-not-yet-rated

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as Bully Abuser with Mental Illness

End Tolerance For Pathology.

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Dear World,

It is time to Recognize,

Understand

and Remedy with Alacrity

the very Simple Cause for Abusive Conditions under which so many innocent people suffer.

The Pathological Psychology of a State Dictator is that of any other Common Bully, Emotional Abuser, Physical Abuser …

Please let us apply the Same Common Sense Remedies for any other case of Abuse

The Same Remedies applied Upon receiving the Abused Family Members into a Safe House or Shelter can be applied globally

The Stakes are catastrophic if we neglect this Mental Wellness for Our Global Family

At the very simplest psychological level – the solutions are so clear

Like any Culture or Group of People oppressed by The Dictator – the Family Members of an Abuser suffer unimaginably, the daily agonies of tortures – both physical and psychological 

These agonies damage victims for generations

Unhealing Wounds paid forward into the future …

generation after generation …

from private hells 

to genocide 

scarring, savaging the humanities of us all as the wound becomes encoded genetically

In a never-ending cycle of misplaced tolerance for pathology.

Democracy’s genius lies partly in it’s foundation of “Balance Of Powers” 

Whereas Absolute Power is a certain path to Abuse Of Power whether it be exacted on an individual, family, nation, economy, or planet.

The Survivors’ Wisdom teaches :

Survivors of Domestic Abuse, Child Abuse, Workplace Abuse, wildlife, sealife, environmental abuse know the Mechanics of Abuse of Power require enabling by those who amplify and ultimately enable the authoritarian to speak at their victims, stealing the Voice of The Victim by appropriation of the victim role – while alienating friends and family – to isolate and deny the victim from rescuers.

Jealous of unattainable excellence and of love they feel denied – the abusers’ self-soothing tool is abuse of any power in their capacity, whether it be the smallest or the greatest effect – they are so powerless to heal their own malady, they seek to exact revenge on any thing , any one willing to tolerate or enable the rampage.

The Abuser must completely control their environment in order to escape accountability and consequences and to that end they must recruit little armies of enablers forming a cult of weak followers who see themselves reflected in the dictator’s delusional superiorities.

The rampage might be an unconscious mechanism unknown to the Abusers themselves, can seem quite innocuous, even laughable at first.

But with time, enabling, tolerance of little pathologies by increments … Absolute Power is the goal of their dis-ease … The disease rules.

The mechanics include fomenting chaos and faking victimhood – the abuser obfuscates and obstructs justice and healing.

The abuser dictator derives relief of their own pain, by causing suffering in others.

Their only destination is death and the ceasing of their own pain, but they are too sick in their ego’s narcissistic quest to prove their superiority, so they harm everything in their environment in a quest for personal glory.

Please let us End Our Tolerance for Pathology and Begin the Remedy with the very same Basic Common Sense used to protect an innocent child from the Pathology of her abuser.

If We Numb ourselves into delusive agreement with Toxic Apathies, lulling ourselves into the Oblivion of a Depressed World View that holds it impossible to end war, abuse, hate, torture … – then what?

Then by abdication, we have accepted our own Demise through knowing and willful Sufferage of Pathology and Abuse

If we accept Such Sufferage for another, then by definition, we accept it for ourselves …

To see this truth – is one step toward Global Mental Wellness and therefore – one step toward the remedy of a condition that literally plagues us like a global pandemic

Global Mental Wellness Assures Global Physical Survival by our admission and acceptance of the Larger, Kinder and Most Practical Truth …

That Truth is of our Unlimited Potential … to counteract the equally unlimited pathologies of the Abuser …

Global Mental Wellness is vital to our survival and perhaps we ignore and discount it because most cultures do the same with individual Mental Wellness

Via Global Mental Wellness we will have access to these Remedies :

It is Possible to access our own Toxic Emotions as individuals and also as Cultures, Societies, States, Countries …

It is Possible for us all to Detoxify, Remedy, Improve, Heal our own Behaviours when we know we have crossed a line

It is Possible to Recognize Early Warning Signs of Impending Events via Understanding the Mechanism of Abuse and the Psychology of The Abuser

and

It is Possible and Necessary

To Say “No” in the Very Earliest Stages of any impending Abusive Event,

It is Possible and Necessary,

To Say “No” most often with Non-Violence

It is Possible and Necessary

To Say “No”

Whenever a Dictatorial, Abusive presence rears its ugly head across our own boundaries whether they be personal physical boundaries at home, at work or national boundaries

It really is – Possible.

Now.

Right Now.

Then – let us say “YES” to Urgent Care for Social Justice + Climate Action 

We have Emergency Rooms for broken bones but not broken spirits so let us create a coalition of lawyers, universities, social and public service workers and wellness professionals to build an online + phone in network that amounts to “Social Justice + Climate Emergency Rooms “™©

Let’s Do This.

Now.

Right Now.

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“The mechanics + #economics of #misogyny ; in the closet of culture behind #racism #homophobia + #climate denial we find misogyny (hatred of all things #femme #wild + free) so deep in the fabric, it’s in the stitches”© Cali Lili ‘s eVeNgodThisFemaleIsNotYetRated ™ “

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The HERstory of

Our Oscars 2020 Contender:

2021 / 2022 Update : this innovative project is featured in exciting upcoming documentaries by other producers and we are in pre-production on my next indie movie + album … all TBA

In 2012 I set out to make a sustainable, green, upcycled, lgbtqia , interracial love story – an – all- female-crew motion picture —

with — an original, eclectic soundtrack

much of it to be shot + recorded on a floating film set

and surrounding Venice Beach “hood” near my “AquaCultureZ™ WaterGarden™ feMt0™studi0”

Upon graduating early with a Master’s Degree from NYU, then entering the life of a “working actress” I learned most roles offered to girls + women (except a lucky few) were too often broadcasting degrading messages about us.

I tried to “adjust” a couple of the early roles – to balance ‘ the power in the frame.’ Despite the content of any given dialogue or role, I worked to imbue the character with strength.

I was beginning to get offered somewhat lucrative roles, I was more than willing to work hard – “work my way up.” The problem with that plan – is summarized by the “MeToo” movement, which is not just about inappropriate sexual innuendo, but psychological abuse leading to agony, resulting in self-doubt.

It’s also an Economics problem, with roadblocks held in place by threads of racism, sexism , homophobia , climate-ignorance in a gate-keeping culture – when all I wanted was to excel in the profession to which I’d dedicated myself whole-heartedly.

I’d been warned about this environment by older actors ( not actresses ) but assumed times had changed so I walked blindly into an environment reminiscent of a bygone era that had never updated it’s own “operating system.”

There I was with all this 21st Century software but there was nothing to run it.

How does a professional, work their way up such a slippery ladder? Perhaps economic inequality is sourced in such pathologies?

Until #MeToo became a hashtag – I’ll venture to guess that most women suffered under the weight of judgement by their families, friends and self-criticism about why they hadn’t progressed further despite their talent and drive. The worst part, is not being supported by “sisters” of a sorority I feel could be so comforting – and even worse, navigating a hyper-competitive “pigeons-for-scraps” culture based in scarcity where ideas and intellectual property can be so easily appropriated by those with power, harvested from those without.

I’ll venture to guess we all felt as though it was just happening to us alone. Similar to the “Occupancy Wall Street” awareness – when people realized that getting their degrees and working hard was not enough in an economy rigged for the 1 percent.

Even if I’d been willing to be willing on whatever levels of “consent” – I’d just come from surviving an abusive childhood – literally “rescued” by my passion for acting , dance, arts , learning – and my teachers who saw the talent, had invested their care in that little girl rushing through the streets of Manhattan – from dance class to acting class to anthropology and science classrooms.

They’d invested their own passion for education – in that little girl – me.

I couldn’t let them down and I couldn’t let down other little girls who might someday see a movie that I was in – and when she sees me in that movie, she sees herself and when she sees herself, I want her to feel strong, not helpless. I want “her” to feel proud of “HERstory.”

After turning down three lucrative roles in a row, especially after bumping into one of the producers I’d turned down at a social event – noticing his “WHO are YOU to turn ME down glare ” –

I sucked it up – GLARED BACK with a smile –

and THAT was the moment I learned :

WHO I AM ? Is a girl who won’t get bullied – ever again.

Who I am – is a girl choosing integrity over expediency – no matter how ambitious I may be.

And I’m ambitious.

In that moment – I realized – the only way to hopefully “work my way up” – without dipping way down into the “MeToo” swamp I found myself wading through – was to make my own film and album – with an all female crew – so that I could speak to “the little girl in everyone”© – and – simply do what I do best : “pictures words music in motion ™” ©


I also understood that it wasn’t “men” – it wasn’t “directors” or “producers” — it was the Culture at large. Certainly I’d run into plenty of women who had internalized misogyny to enact upon sisters and there was plenty of it in every profession. I had to find a way to work in my chosen profession, to which I had already dedicated – so I chose – to literally “be the change I wished to see” as the saying goes.

Having studied anthropology along with intercultural, interdisciplinary performance modalities – I felt uniquely equipped to grapple with these new insights – even though, they’d prove beyond challenging to implement. I’d be needing some miracles and tons of hard work integrating the education + early work experience I’d earned – with the realities of making a movie and album. A tall order.

I had saved up babysitting, lemonade stand, acting gigs and yoga teacher earnings and these were “startup funds” which I partly used to create our first music video “ElectionTrain” made in urgent support for Obama. Then we began pre-pre-production on the feature motion picture :

“eVe N’god this female is not yet rated ™©

FOR YOUR CONSIDERATION

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I didn’t want to make a film or album that I’d already seen before.

I was aware that most noted ‘counter-culture’ revolutions in media had previously involved an examination but also ultimate glorification of violence + what is sometimes described as ‘toxic masculinity.’

The film prologue introduces my storytelling concepts which I’ve been referring to, as : “orgasmic” instead of “phallic.” I’m positing that my liquid, fluid, music-based, “orgasmic” storytelling journey to tell the “love-is-love-triangle-story” of eVe, Lila + Doctor Goddard – can exist in harmony with the more normative “phallic” cinematic storytelling styles most cultures expect in a narrative movie. While other directors have experimented with dabbling in it – I feel my movie, while working within the constraints of a modest budget, fully explores this type of storytelling, not with outer special effects, but with inner ones.

The movie draws us “under” and “into” the deep end of the pool, the pond, the ocean as if vacillating between conscious + unconscious time-space dimensions but always flowing like water (orgasmic) instead of rocketing into space (phallic) as “eVe” describes from “inside the closet.”

While I’m proud to say my film was made “like a girl” as that popular hashtag proudly proclaims – I’m almost tempted to ask the audience to consider my innovative storytelling “as if” this were directed by one of several guy filmmakers who’ve experimented this way, but with larger budgets but perhaps a bit less insight about the female nature of this “orgasmic” storytelling style which, in my work, seeks to flow poetic, liquid, music.

It is, in fact, I guarantee you, a different type of “orgasm.”

As my movie does include a theme + dedication to victims of violence against the LGBTQ community, women, black individuals + communities, indigenous individuals + communities … and … AND : our oceans, our mother Earth, wildlife – especially Sea-Life (most feminine) – I did portray an act of violence, but I was cognizant of telling the story of the movie in a manner I described onscreen as ‘orgasmic’ existing alongside most storytelling which is often “phallic.”

I posit that both ‘orgasmic’ + ‘phallic’ storytelling can ( and must ) exist inter-dependently in our Arts + Culture.

I found myself having to not only “shatter glass ceilings” + “break sound-barriers” – but I also had to “break” some storytelling / cinematic / music ‘ rules ‘ –
in order to tell my ‘love-triangle’ ‘love-is-love – story’ : AUTHENTICALLY.

This wasn’t going to be structured like other movies – this “herstory” needed something from me + “she” is composed of the twin-Tao-yin-yang characters : “eVe” + “Lila.” “She” wrote herself, directed herself.

SO – my “Declaration of IndiePenDance™ re – EVOL ution ™ femt0™studi0 ” has evolved, organically – out of necessity – into a counter-culture womanifest0™ ” ©

An all female, openly LGBTQIA crew in 2013 was VERY NEW (still rare) – if we were not ‘the first’ – we are definitely among the very first –

Eyes widened whenever I floated the idea. Also pushback – pushed back — on a variety of levels.Sigh.

Some men “mansplained” – my idea was discriminatory. Others proudly displayed their self-hatred through open sexism, racism, homophobia, climate-denying biases, which was – briefly surprising but eventually – worthless, because hate, though ‘loud’ – is such a drab, useless – one way ticket.

Recently, I became aware of a “mini-genre” to which my “eVe” belongs – and by that I mean – movies which explore the internalized concepts of various religious “eves” – in the context of secular, colloquial (not biblical) culture.

As my Master’s degree incorporated both Anthropology+ Performance Arts – I tend to “study” culture – even while I’m creating it.

I’ve noticed + personally experienced – the regulations + limitations placed on HER-stories – the ” ‘slut-shaming” of “eVe” ‘ – which has : palpable, real-life consequence for most women, girls, feminine males + wildlife (especially Sea-Life , most feminine) — with it’s victims buried deep in the roots of most cultures.

Shaming-eVe :

When looking “in the closet” of any given Culture – if we venture to explore past the climate-denial, past homophobia and racism – we’ll find misogyny – hiding – way – WAY … at the back of that closet – where most of us, even women, are unaware of the insidious odor seeping deep :

” into the fabric – it’s in the stitches”© as my protagonist eVe™ discovers.

Misogynysuspicion hatred of all things femme, wild , uncontrollable, the soft-strength, the innocence – the vulnerability …

including Nature, feminine girls, masculine girls, feminine boys, water, fluid sexuality + gender, wildlife, Sea-Life, cetaceans … “all are snaking along … slithering in + out of the multi-verse like the proverbial snake swallowing her own tail “© … all included … on that spectrum

All that “femme” – is feared by the toxic entity which has hounded Humanity for eons – I’ll name it here : “that which believes it must control others or die.” That toxin can be present in women too.

My “eVe” spends a good bit of the movie “trapped” indoors and she wisely uses some of that time – exploring the “closet.”

eVe “speaks truth to power” when she discovers “in the closet” – that “Shame” is misogyny’s “favorite weapon – the ultimate WMD? ” ©

My team and I are SO PROUD to be considered for the 2020 nominations.

It’s beyond ego, it’s a form of healing.

Thank you.

For Your Consideration

I discussed my movie as ‘ archetypal fable’ – in a 2019 Interview – before I ever saw the other “eve” reference movies

The project was made partly in response to my own Me-Too experiences (and that of fellow female artists + craftspersons).

I believe it’s impossible to fully comprehend what it’s like to be female – or LGBTQ – in the context of cultural biases + expectations toward – “female essence ” (“in all 6 billion gender expressions”© ) – without exploring the internalized cultural influences of – the “myth” of “eve” — and as I’ve posited in the film – equally important – Eve’s twinwhom we call “Lila” representingthe myth of Lillith.”

Furthermore, in understanding the ‘female experience’ – I truly believe that men, and ‘ male-identifying ‘ persons (some of whom, are biologically ‘female’) – will greatly benefit, resulting in the betterment of our blue-planet and ‘every inter-dependent living being’ ©

Those espousing hateful views towards people – or environmental conservancy – often cite economics + productivity as excuses for exclusionary actions. In fact, hate, exclusion + climate denial are completelyun-productive for society + for the planet.

It’s pure economics if one needs that sort of excuse. Discriminatory, hateful, wasteful energy create nothing except toxins + problems .

We already have a surplus of those.

This planet needs solutions that heal our problems. More than ever I believe education + quality communication skills are the universal “solvent” whereby we can dissolve + detoxify global cultures from such maladies.

In fact, my ” feMt0™studi0 AquaCultureZ™ “© which are ” Authentic Artisanal Farm To Table Indie Movies , Music, Books ™ —

– surviving independently, indigenous + sustainable – like an endangered species ( along with all other endangered species wildlife, Sea-Life, and the working class / middle class in every economy ) – on gasps of oxygen –



Moving Forward :

I didn’t want to make a film or album that I’d already seen before.
I posit that both ‘orgasmic’ + ‘phallic’ storytelling can ( and must ) exist inter-dependently in our Arts + Culture.
I found myself having to break some storytelling / cinematic / music ‘rules ‘
in order to tell my ‘love-triangle’ ‘love-is-love – story’ : AUTHENTICALLY.
SO – my “Declaration of IndiePenDance™ re – EVOL ution ™ femt0™studi0 ” has evolved, organically – out of necessity – into a counter-culture womanifest0™ ” ©

in spite of the BigMoney$ in BigMedia$ – enacting a full on — GentrificationOfCulture™ by buying up / swallowing up – the arts, the media human culture ©

we are hand-made – on sustainable half-a- shoestring budgets – I’m hoping that the Academy considers my written request to create a new category for this budget level –

hand-made by an artist – with a crew of fellow artists + craftspersons (not a corporation) positing this idea :

” LOVE is good for the economy – we are MakinALivinNotAKillin™ “©

Which Should be a relief for some economists arguing with haters + abusers of power!

In my movie – my lead female protagonist – ‘eVe’ – posits new ideas to the male protagonist – ‘doctor Goddard / aka ‘god.’

“eVe” speaks “truth to power” when she posits her thesis about a “fempowered™ fluid female economy based on water instead of Oil ” © :

” oil – that’s energy from death – but WATER is LIFE! waterways of the world wear LINGERIE not boxers! ” ©

“eVe” continues her argument in this debate towards her PHD :

“doc, we REALLY need our goddesses back” © in order to create a “fair sex ecology, economy, a fair sex state! the STATE wants a goddess – NEEDS a goddess – ” © ( Cali Lili Indies ™ “eVe N’ god this female is not yet rated ™”©)

Runaway With A Scholarship ™”

Just after graduating at an impossibly early age, having been skipped several grades, earned scholarships to pay my own tuition- with a Master’s Degree but no high school diploma – i stepped out into the “real world” only to discover that the “ISMs” I had believed to be “anachronISMs” – from history books racism, sexism, homophobia , climate denial – the “male gaze” – the “white gaze ” + other “gazes” – were still alive and finding their way back , insidiously, into our world consciousness, our current histories + HERstories.

The HERstory that we are living now – became a source of great worry to me. I had survived an abusive childhood + I know abuse when I see it.

Abuse of Power exhibited all the tell-tale signatures of Domestic Abuse, Child-Abuse — AND – Environmental Abuse — on a larger scale. The ‘family’ is ‘humanity’ and as my family of origin was never a safe place to be — I had already adopted “Humanity” as the family with whom I “belong.”

As a person born of vastly varied, multi-cultural heritages – I could see early on – that “tribalism” was a way to keep walls between people. Which is why I was a “global citizen” before that became a hashtag.

Born on the water,’ I’ve always felt – my “true heritage” – is water.

The two debating characters in my movie – “eVe” and “Doctor Goddard – are never – in the same room.

They are separated by “walls” – through which they “debate” – but their ultimate “union” is a form of “healing” … a little miracle.

SurFShackLoft™h20

Large Part of the purpose for those Projectwas my dedication to Sustainability + Green Practices.

My alarm at what’s happening to our planet – especially to our waters, ocean life, wildlife – all of which endanger human life + civilization, led me to take my own tiny climate- actions very early on.

In high school – I had designed a “SurFShackLoft™feMt0™studi0™h20 to be handbuilt very frugally – from biodegradable + upcycled materials.

Miraculously, this loft was built very economically but equally important – was combining that Sustainability Ethos – with my aesthetics + methodologies developed from early background in dance+theater – to create my signature style along with SustainableFilmSets™.

SustainableFilmSets™ ArtisanalFarmToTableProductions™

Without a doubt, my feMt0studi0 is – the – Innovator/ Pioneer in SustainableFilmSets™ + “ArtisanalFarm-To-TableProductions™”© Sending out the “pearls” from my little “AquaCultureZ™ Direct to the audience from VenusBeach™ CuttingEdgeOfThePacific™

An added touch of sweetness came when i had asked my local farmers to donate lemons, avocados, kale and flowers, along with other produce – to the creation of our GardenOfeVe™ film set — and they were THRILLED to do so.

“ToyBoxTech ™ ©

As I planned for the movie, I realized that while I don’t consider myself a “designer” – my script – born from story + music (the lyrics are written into my scripts) — but also from methodology + aesthetics, had already designed both sets + costumes.

I hadn’t intended to do this. It just created itself.

We built an “indoor garden” that looked as though a proverbial metaphorical “eVe” embodied by a contemporary – “surfer-chick-student-burlesque-dancer eVe” – had left somewhere in a hurry + quickly planted her own indoor ” victory garden” – out of survival.

This wasn’t fully autobiographical but it metaphorically mirrored my childhood.

Hard as it was to convey – not wanting to sound grandiose – I just knew in the heart of that little girl who survived with the aid of her dedication toward the arts + teachers encouraging her talent – that little girl (me) – her eyes – were witnessingwhat ‘eVe’ in my movie refers to – as ‘an ancient grief’ – her precious ‘global family’ – was falling victim to ancient abuse.

A ‘silent scream’ was often all that could be mustered by that little girl witnessing domestic violence at so young an age. That ‘silent scream’ sensation was returning but this time – ‘she’ – ‘the little girl me’ – was witnessing on a larger scale. Those who know about domestic abuse, know that the witnessing is even more destructive than most people know. Her childhood home was a place she had escaped – always imagining a beautiful world of possibility out here where ‘ the world is my living room’ © ( from one of the songs on the soundtrack ). Now THAT world was experiencing the ‘domestic abuse’ too.

I’m still discovering the movie and songs even now, perhaps the Project can be described as : “A Not-So-Silent Scream ™”© A project born from worry – destined for determination and resolve to be “HandMadeToMakeADifference ™.”©

“Odd Like Me”

eVe N’ god this female is not yet rated ™ ”

I’m in love.

With Movies

and her sister – Music.

“Pictures Words Music in Motion ™”

In addition to a ” Coming Out ” this movie, this music is intended as a “Coming In From The Cold.” 

All through the making of this project, I found myself fighting to save my studio and home in Venice Beach from the severe gentrification and homelessness growing all around me.

It was a familiar fight – against an unjust encroachment from abuse of power. Many times I found myself staying up all night figuring out legal documents, in order to fight back against Trump-style developers – while during the day – working to keep the project going. 

A familiar struggle, reminiscent of a childhood framed with terror but propelled by hope and love. A childhood and adult-hood experienced by many less fortunate than myself. 

Love.

It can heal everything.

I learned that early in life. 

It’s odd, like me, earning a Masters’ degree (NYU) with no high-school diploma, having been skipped several grades directly into University. Odd – like me. My fellow students in the Masters’ program were already professors in other countries who had done all they could, to come to America, to study at NYU. I was a kid with no high school diploma – and they were grown-up professors. Odd, like me. I often think about them now, back in their countries and what they must think of America now.  

Having survived an abusive childhood – I was dedicated to the arts and grateful for the “shelter” I could find in my deep love / passion for the arts and my teachers, who’d encouraged my work. 

Dance was my first love – along with her twin – music. Then I discovered their sisters –  theater and cinema. Along with the support of my teachers, these ladies “saved my life.” 

Alone with my dreams, walking the pavement of NYC streets, afraid to go home on the subway until 

late at night, I learned my craft comforted by the shelter of dance classes with Broadway Pros, art house cinema screens, and haunting legacy of timeless masterpieces echoing from the halls of every Manhattan museum and library.

My teachers were angels + allies in my “dreams come true” and thanks to them, and to my love – I won scholarships, was skipped grades and offered a scholarship to NYU where I earned my Masters’ Degree at a very young age.  

One of my report cards described me as a “runaway imagination” and of course, I imagined my imagination running away and I myself became a “runaway with a scholarship.”

I caught a wave + scraped together my “half a shoestring” budget, built my tiny “green” grassroots, up-cycled, recycled, mostly “off the grid” floating film + music Tiny SurfLoft On The Water in Venice Beach, hand-picked my team + went to work !

I had saved up lemonade-stand, babysitting, yoga teacher + acting gig earnings and my hand-built studio and methodologies as a matter of following a course I had set, upon navigating my way from graduating with a Master’s Degree at an impossibly young age. There was a virtual drummer playing an indigenous soundtrack to my life and — I was listening and following the steps. The ocean was an important core for me and I had dedicated my artistry toward creating my own style of “AquaCulture.

I likened it to building a “an oyster-pearl-farm” and my projects would encourage audiences to “sip the oyster savour the pearls .”©

My projects are :

HandMade 2 Make A Difference with ToyBoxTechnology ™ ” 

Riding the subways alone at too young an age, doing all I could not to go home – I found myself “living at” all my dance classes in private studios on additional dance scholarships, then “living at” the museums and libraries of NYC – kept me busy, along with part-time babysitting and other jobs to pay for anything scholarships didn’t cover. 

So …  I just …  – never had time – to explore / learn about my own sexuality.

By the time I did learn about it – I was married to my much older male partner, and then BOOM – one day – I FELL —  in love with a girl. 

It felt CRAZY –  

But it was also – BEYOND GREAT !

The LOVE I had for dance, and the arts – had now come full circle into bloom. 

I was blooming

My amazing male partner – reflected this too. He said – you are more YOU now. 

I had a lot of figuring out to do.

First — I had to figure out – WHY – did I feel as though I was SUPPOSED to be upset?

I DID agonize about –

feel GUILTY about it —

but I HAD to ask – WHY?

That’s when it came to me – the title of one of the soundtrack songs + a work of art I released with the project :

“We Don’t Fall in Love, We Rise ™”

Little did I know how many times I would repeat that to myself + others.

We had a lot of figuring out to do. Luckily – I was and am still – married to an amazing human being. 

Well, of course – I was growing up – growing into Me

Along with this personal growth, came my awareness of what was happening in the 21st Century world at large. 

My personal anguish into ecstasy and my growing deep concerns for the future of Humanity / Mother Earth as an “Endangered Species” became so agonizing –  that my only way to deal with anxieties about what I saw happening to this planet in the 21st Century while I was literally “blooming” personally – was to speak up and speak out – doing what I do best. 

Suddenly I KNEW that there were people who were experiencing the same “awakenings” about their sexuality but who were living in repressive cultures – and I wanted to reach out to them – to hear THEIR stories – and tell them it would be ok – share my experiences with them –  when I first began visualizing this project in 2010.

Although part of my anguish about the LGBTQ community was brought on by learning about the story of Brittany Cosby and Crystal Jackson who were “killed for kissing”© as well as that of Matthew Wayne Shepard – all of whom the movie is dedicated on-screen (dedicated to several communities) … — never did I imagine, of course, that we’d be experiencing all of this today – in 2019. 

So many of my posts regarding this project were aimed at persons who lived in other ( more repressive ) cultures and dictatorships. 

And here we are, ladies and gentlemen. 

Here – we – are. 

2019

A ” Coming Out ” and a  “Coming In From The Cold.”  

I hoped to release a “healing balm” for the “global family” –  at the intersections of LGBTQIA communities and my growing concerns for inter-related social justice crises such as – reproductive rights / women’s rights, violence against LGBTQ and female communities, Indigenous People’s and Black Lives Matter and Climate Change / endangered species. 

As intended – this movie, soundtrack and everything my feMt0™studi0 has been working on since inception in 2012 has already reached selected but passionate audiences from Los Angeles to Lagos, Uganda to Agra, Mali, to Manhattan — 

My wish after graduating – was to create an international – inter-disciplinary – multi-gender – mixed orientation team – in order to reach domestic + global audiences, without the “Over-Lords” of corporate media, stifling the creativity my teachers had encouraged in me. 

Much to my surprise – I got a bit of that wish with the limited releases of this project and my first Youtube music video “Election Train”  leading up to the movie. I had taken some time from the creation of the movie – to make the music video in order to support Obama’s re-election. 

I am REALLY WISHING that with an acknowledgement from YOU — that this project can TRAVEL FARTHER – and reach MANY MORE people who might be comforted by it’s message of acceptance and LOVE IS LOVE – along with being entertained by the work itself

Creating high quality cinema and music – was of utmost importance along with the “message” of the story. Excellence and Craft is a must. 

I was very much aware of ‘composing’ + ‘designing’ along with screenplay-writing, directing, acting, along with rapping-singing+producing – so there’s definitely a ’21st-Century-Girl-rapper-rock-band‘ – aesthetic at work here . The wardrobe was a “meditation on mens-wear”© + I had imagined it could be a clothing line someday! This was also based on an exploration of “the male gaze” + “the white gaze.”

‘Culture is Nutrition meets Environment …’ ©

‘We Consume it + sometimes unwittingly, like the air we breathe, we consume by OSMOSIS …’©

Lovers of Movies + Music as well as – Free-speech a Free-Press, Journalism + uh – Basic Freedoms of Democracy might do the Culture + the Planet ( ourselves ) a favor – if we simply support an authentic indie artisanal “maker” like myself and my team.

I’m not against big budget films – I often love them!

And – I’d like to find more opportunities to work in them as an actress – because the current system is one big roadblock.

I just need a bit of “oxygen” – support from my community + from the Culture – to do what I do at my Sustainable femt0 ™studi0 : ” IndiGoGreen™ DreamBigTinyFootPrintZ™” we dream big + leave tiny footprints”©

Often , I liken my signature artisan-made process to “farm to table” + “Aquaculture.”

There’s a scene in Billy Wilder’s movie “Sabrina” where Audrey Hepburn as Sabrina , having been to the Sorbonne – is able to cobble together a feast – from just a few eggs + crackers + milk … – THAT’S my aesthetics

Yes I’m mixing metaphors when I say I’m allowing the “AquaCulturalZ™ Oyster-Pearls to “vine-ripen” + then when we release a project – I aim to “nourish” through “pictures words music in motion ™” encouraging Audiences to :

“sip the oysterZ savor the pearlZ ™ “©

Every day at my ocean studio – I send out RIPPLES on the water – wishing for love and peace in the world …

My most effective “Ripple” is this move, this album … –

I hope that your acknowledgement — will help this Ripple travel much farther than I can get it to go on my own … 

It’s funny how sometimes we have to do what GingerRogers described along the lines of “dancing Backwards In High Heels ” –  in order to move forward one step.

She takes her baby steps,
BackWardsInHighHeels “©

” and though she be but little, she is fierce ” – (Shakespeare ) 

this quote is invoked in one of my favorite true-life stories about the great ” seabiscuit ” –
a story warming my heart from the very beginning of this journey with my own movie –  Tiny Budgets + tiny teams – uphill climbs – hopes + dreams –

‘ She KNOWS
she’s the Dark Horse here –
but darkness
she doesn’t fear

+ Oh she loves to run…

My genuine aim is to:

” nourish ”  through

” Pictures

Words

Music In Motion ” ™

Bon Apetit !

“We Don’t Fall in Love,

We Rise ™ “©


Truli© Cali Lili

2019🏝️ interview :
https://medium.com/@mondofilm/interview-with-cali-lili-from-eve-n-god-this-female-is-not-yet-rated-6d50611b758e

2017 🏝️interview :
http://www.wearemovingstories.com/we-are-moving-stories-films/2017/6/21/eve-n-god-this-female-is-not-yet-rated

Post Script :

GirlTheWorld™

© Cali Lili ;

My process is based on my methodologies in my book ‘The Declaration Of IndiePenDance™’ where I explore my film-making+music-making approach – I call it c.lili™ ‘s CynAesthetiX™ and it includes a variety of innovations in cinematic+music aesthetics.

As a young actress who’s taken the time to respect the history / HERstory of my craft – from the craftspersons’ perspective – I know that ‘innovation’ rests upon the past + is a bridge to the future.

With My Sisters – For My Sisters : in my recent writings and explorations about feminism — I am finding it crucial for us to find out – not so much why men hurt women – but instead, why some women – hurt women –

including the fact that often, we women, hurt ourselves, it’s a vicious cycle – and by hurting our sisters, we are expressing our self hatred …

I explored this – but it was not until VERY recently that I fully understood the depth of how these incidents shape us from childhood, into our teenage years, school experiences and then –

importantly, as we enter the professional world and encounter the competitive forces from our sisters, which often lead women to do unspeakable things – things they write about and rail against as #feminists – but which they do to each other, sometimes unconsciously …

I completed my movie + album while continuing essays and posts about what I would come to call the “Gentrification of Culture ™ “© referring to the intellectual property theft and secret exclusionary behaviors in the most unlikely corners of Arts and Culture

As we know, our work as feminists – and feminism can be fragile, as the world is often cruel to women who speak out, we often need each other — a form of Stockholm-Syndrome style bond out of necessity … so now the “famous feminists” can become the new bullies, having internalized the misogyny — perpetuating the predatory abuse of power — which is why I don’t often avail myself of friendships that are based in “need” or which arise out of hardships like global misogyny …

But there is a bond among us sisters and I always hold a wishful hope that women / girls I encounter will understand the need for true friendship, genuine caring, listening to each other — behaving towards our sisters in ways we wish to be treated … Unfortunately though, I’m going to say it here, and elsewhere – we often miss that mark.

I’m sorry to have to say it, sorrier to have experienced it, but damnit – we need to do better with each other. “Mean Girl Culture Cool” is often invoked when women / girls are acting all “empowered” – but of course that’s just stupid and self-defeating. We must do better.

Sisters – we really must. I offer the project below – which is the first in a trilogy on the subject. This project was a gift I made with my sisters, for my sisters all over the world. We might have been the first AllFemaleCrew as a production team – but we were certainly among the very first ever and I am certain we were a catalyst.

The Project is not easy to pigeonhole – and that’s true to form. I never wanted to make a movie I’ve already seen anywhere else.

One could describe this movie as :

A meditation on ‘male-gaze’ – ‘white-gaze’ – ‘mens-wear’ + other ‘ISMs’….

Or

“A Not So Silent Scream ” ©

I’m still discovering it myself.

I offer it up and hope it reaches both Sisters and Brothers too

Together – we really must GirlTheWorld™ – this is why I made this project – I believe this is how “we shall over-come” our challenges – the ISMS – racism, sexism, homophobia and including climate denial.

I believe honoring the “Sacred Feminine” – the Female – the WomanKind on MotherEarth is the main component of Healing this BluePlanet – our WildLife our SeaLife and our Humanity ” © Cali Lili all rights reserved

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United We Thrive
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🎙️2017

https://t.co/TwbFGG5qkg

🎙️ 2019 On Medium :