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For Your Awards Consideration : eVe N’ god This Female Is Not Yet Rated™ © Cali Lili DaysOfeVe™☯️ : 1 Day in the epiphany of a 21st Century Girl, who kissed a Girl.™ ©

” ‘ and though she be but little, she is fierce ‘ ”  

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This Project is Hand-Made with 100 % Organic Hearts and Souls. HandMadeToMakeADifference™

Ladies + Gentlemen,

In 2012 I set out to make a sustainable, green, upcycled all- female-crew motion picture —

with — an original, eclectic soundtrack

much of it to be shot + recorded on a floating film set

and surrounding Venice Beach “hood” near my “AquaCultureZ™ WaterGarden™ feMt0™studi0”

DaysOfeVe™☯️

“Pictures Words Music In Motion™”

I didn’t want to make a film or album that I’d already seen before.

I was aware that most noted ‘counter-culture’ revolutions in media had previously involved an examination but also ultimate glorification of violence + what is sometimes described as ‘toxic masculinity.’

As my movie does include a theme + dedication to victims of violence against the LGBTQ community, women, indigenous communities and our oceans, our mother Earth, wildlife – especially Sea-Life (most feminine) – I did portray an act of violence, but I was cognizant of telling the story of the movie in a manner I described onscreen as ‘orgasmic’ existing alongside most storytelling which is often “phallic.”

I posit that both ‘orgasmic’ + ‘phallic’ storytelling can ( and must ) exist inter-dependently in our Arts + Culture.

I found myself having to not only “shatter glass ceilings” + “break sound-barriers” – but I also had to “break” some storytelling / cinematic / music ‘ rules ‘ –
in order to tell my ‘love-triangle’ ‘love-is-love – story’ : AUTHENTICALLY.

This wasn’t going to be structured like other movies – this “herstory” needed something from me + “she” is composed of the twin-Tao-yin-yang characters : “eVe” + “Lila.” “She” wrote herself, directed herself.

SO – my “Declaration of IndiePenDance™ re – EVOL ution ™ femt0™studi0 ” has evolved, organically – out of necessity – into a counter-culture womanifest0™ ” ©

An all female, openly LGBTQIA crew in 2013 was VERY NEW (still rare) – if we were not ‘the first’ – we are definitely among the very first –

Eyes widened whenever I floated the idea.

Also pushback – pushed back — on a variety of levels.

Sigh.

Some men “mansplained” – my idea was discriminatory. Others proudly displayed their self-hatred through open sexism, racism, homophobia, climate-denying biases, which was – briefly surprising but eventually – worthless, because hate, though ‘loud’ – is such a drab, useless – one way ticket.

Recently, I became aware of a “mini-genre” to which my “eVe” belongs – and by that I mean – movies which explore the internalized concepts of various religious “eves” – in the context of secular, colloquial (not biblical) culture.

As my Master’s degree incorporated both Anthropology+ Performance Arts – I tend to “study” culture – even while I’m creating it.

I’ve noticed + personally experienced – the regulations + limitations placed on HER-stories – the ” ‘slut-shaming” of “eVe” ‘ – which has : palpable, real-life consequence for most women, girls, feminine males + wildlife (especially Sea-Life , most feminine) — with it’s victims buried deep in the roots of most cultures.

Shaming-eVe :

When looking “in the closet” of any given Culture – if we venture to explore past the climate-denial, past homophobia and racism – we’ll find misogyny – hiding – way – WAY … at the back of that closet – where most of us, even women, are unaware of the insidious odor seeping deep :

” into the fabric – it’s in the stitches”© as my protagonist eVe™ discovers.

Misogynysuspicion hatred of all things femme, wild , uncontrollable, the soft-strength, the innocence – the vulnerability …

including Nature, feminine girls, masculine girls, feminine boys, water, fluid sexuality + gender, wildlife, Sea-Life, cetaceans … “all are snaking along … slithering in + out of the multi-verse like the proverbial snake swallowing her own tail “© … all included … on that spectrum

All that “femme” – is feared by the toxic entity which has hounded Humanity for eons – I’ll name it here : “that which believes it must control others or die.” That toxin can be present in women too.

My “eVe” spends a good bit of the movie “trapped” indoors and she wisely uses some of that time – exploring the “closet.”

eVe “speaks truth to power” when she discovers “in the closet” – that “Shame” is misogyny’s “favorite weapon – the ultimate WMD ” ©

I discussed my movie as ‘ archetypal fable’ – in a 2019 Interview – before I ever saw the other “eve” reference movies

The project was made partly in response to my own Me-Too experiences (and that of fellow female artists + craftspersons).

I believe it’s impossible to fully comprehend what it’s like to be female – or LGBTQ – in the context of cultural biases + expectations toward – “female essence ” (“in all 6 billion gender expressions”© ) – without exploring the internalized cultural influences of – the “myth” of “eve” — and as I’ve posited in the film – equally important – Eve’s twinwhom we call “Lila” representingthe myth of Lillith.”

Furthermore, in understanding the ‘female experience’ – I truly believe that men, and ‘ male-identifying ‘ persons (some of whom, are biologically ‘female’) – will greatly benefit, resulting in the betterment of our blue-planet and ‘every inter-dependent living being’ ©

Those espousing hateful views towards people – or environmental conservancy – often cite economics + productivity as excuses for exclusionary actions. In fact, hate, exclusion + climate denial are completelyun-productive for society + for the planet.

It’s pure economics if one needs that sort of excuse. Discriminatory, hateful, wasteful energy create nothing except toxins + problems .

We already have a surplus of those.

This planet needs solutions that heal our problems. More than ever I believe education + quality communication skills are the universal “solvent” whereby we can dissolve + detoxify global cultures from such maladies.

In fact, my ” feMt0™studi0 AquaCultureZ™ “© which are ” Authentic Artisanal Farm To Table Indie Movies , Music, Books ™ —

– surviving independently, indigenous + sustainable – like an endangered species ( along with all other endangered species wildlife, Sea-Life, and the working class / middle class in every economy ) – on gasps of oxygen –



Moving Forward :

I didn’t want to make a film or album that I’d already seen before.
I posit that both ‘orgasmic’ + ‘phallic’ storytelling can ( and must ) exist inter-dependently in our Arts + Culture.
I found myself having to break some storytelling / cinematic / music ‘rules ‘
in order to tell my ‘love-triangle’ ‘love-is-love – story’ : AUTHENTICALLY.
SO – my “Declaration of IndiePenDance™ re – EVOL ution ™ femt0™studi0 ” has evolved, organically – out of necessity – into a counter-culture womanifest0™ ” ©

in spite of the BigMoney$ in BigMedia$ – enacting a full on — GentrificationOfCulture™ by buying up / swallowing up – the arts, the media human culture ©

we are hand-made – on a sustainable shoestring budget – by an artist – with a crew of fellow artists + craftspersons (not a corporation) positing this idea :

” LOVE is good for the economy – we are MakinALivinNotAKillin™ “©

Which Should be a relief for some economists arguing with haters + abusers of power!

In my movie – my lead female protagonist – ‘eVe’ – posits new ideas to the male protagonist – ‘doctor Goddard / aka ‘god.’

“eVe” speaks “truth to power” when she posits her thesis about a “fempowered™ fluid female economy based on water instead of Oil ” © :

” oil – that’s energy from death – but WATER is LIFE! waterways of the world wear LINGERIE not boxers! ” ©

“eVe” continues her argument in this debate towards her PHD :

“doc, we REALLY need our goddesses back” © in order to create a “fair sex ecology, economy, a fair sex state! the STATE wants a goddess – NEEDS a goddess – ” © ( Cali Lili Indies ™ “eVe N’ god this female is not yet rated ™”©)

Mostly, the Project is driven by – connected with – a deeper, wider purpose.

Runaway With A Scholarship ™”

Just after graduating at an impossibly early age, having been skipped several grades, earned scholarships to pay my own tuition- with a Master’s Degree but no high school diploma – i stepped out into the “real world” only to discover that the “ISMs” I had believed to be “anachronISMs” – from history books racism, sexism, homophobia , climate denial – the “male gaze” – the “white gaze ” + other “gazes” – were still alive and finding their way back , insidiously, into our world consciousness, our current histories + HERstories.

The HERstory that we are living now – became a source of great worry to me. I had survived an abusive childhood + I know abuse when I see it.

Abuse of Power exhibited all the tell-tale signatures of Domestic Abuse, Child-Abuse — AND – Environmental Abuse — on a larger scale. The ‘family’ is ‘humanity’ and as my family of origin was never a safe place to be — I had already adopted “Humanity” as the family with whom I “belong.”

As a person born of vastly varied, multi-cultural heritages – I could see early on – that “tribalism” was a way to keep walls between people. Which is why I was a “global citizen” before that became a hashtag.

Born on the water,’ I’ve always felt – my “true heritage” – is water.

The two debating characters in my movie – are never – in the same room.

They are separated by “walls” – through which they “debate” – but their ultimate “union” is a form of “healing” … a little miracle.

SurFShackLoft™h20

Large Part of the purpose for those Projectwas my dedication to Sustainability + Green Practices.

My alarm at what’s happening to our planet – especially to our waters, ocean life, wildlife – all of which endanger human life + civilization, led me to take my own tiny climate- actions very early on.

In high school – I had designed a “SurFShackLoft™feMt0™studi0™h20 to be handbuilt very frugally – from biodegradable + upcycled materials.

Miraculously, this loft was built very economically but equally important – was combining that Sustainability Ethos – with my aesthetics + methodologies developed from early background in dance+theater – to create my signature style along with SustainableFilmSets™.

SustainableFilmSets™ ArtisanalFarmToTableProductions™

Without a doubt, my feMt0studi0 is – the – Innovator/ Pioneer in SustainableFilmSets™ + “ArtisanalFarm-To-TableProductions™”© Sending out the “pearls” from my little “AquaCultureZ™ Direct to the audience from VenusBeach™ CuttingEdgeOfThePacific™

An added touch of sweetness came when i had asked my local farmers to donate lemons, avocados, kale and flowers, along with other produce – to the creation of our GardenOfeVe™ film set — and they were THRILLED to do so.

“ToyBoxTech ™ ©

As I planned for the movie, I realized that while I don’t consider myself a “designer” – my script – born from story + music (the lyrics are written into my scripts) — but also from methodology + aesthetics, had already designed both sets + costumes.

I hadn’t intended to do this. It just created itself.

We built an “indoor garden” that looked as though a proverbial metaphorical “eVe” embodied by a contemporary – “surfer-chick-student-burlesque-dancer eVe” – had left somewhere in a hurry + quickly planted her own indoor ” victory garden” – out of survival.

This wasn’t fully autobiographical but it metaphorically mirrored my childhood.

Hard as it was to convey – not wanting to sound grandiose – I just knew in the heart of that little girl who survived with the aid of her dedication toward the arts + teachers encouraging her talent – that little girl (me) – her eyes – were witnessingwhat ‘eVe’ in my movie refers to – as ‘an ancient grief’ – her precious ‘global family’ – was falling victim to ancient abuse.

A ‘silent scream’ was often all that could be mustered by that little girl witnessing domestic violence at so young an age. That ‘silent scream’ sensation was returning but this time – ‘she’ – ‘the little girl me’ – was witnessing on a larger scale. Those who know about domestic abuse, know that the witnessing is even more destructive than most people know. Her childhood home was a place she had escaped – always imagining a beautiful world of possibility out here where ‘ the world is my living room’ © ( from one of the songs on the soundtrack ). Now THAT world was experiencing the ‘domestic abuse’ too.

I’m still discovering the movie and songs even now, perhaps the Project can be described as : “A Not-So-Silent Scream ™”© A project born from worry – destined for determination and resolve to be “HandMadeToMakeADifference ™.”©

“Odd Like Me”

eVe N’ god this female is not yet rated ™ ”

I’m in love.

With Movies

and her sister – Music.

“Pictures Words Music in Motion ™”

In addition to a ” Coming Out ” this movie, this music is intended as a “Coming In From The Cold.” 

All through the making of this project, I found myself fighting to save my studio and home in Venice Beach from the severe gentrification and homelessness growing all around me.

It was a familiar fight – against an unjust encroachment from abuse of power. Many times I found myself staying up all night figuring out legal documents, in order to fight back against Trump-style developers – while during the day – working to keep the project going. 

A familiar struggle, reminiscent of a childhood framed with terror but propelled by hope and love. A childhood and adult-hood experienced by many less fortunate than myself. 

Love. It can heal everything. I learned that early in life. 

It’s odd, like me, earning a Masters’ degree (NYU) with no high-school diploma, having been skipped several grades directly into University. Odd – like me. My fellow students in the Masters’ program were already professors in other countries who had done all they could, to come to America, to study at NYU. I was a kid with no high school diploma – and they were grown-up professors. Odd, like me. I often think about them now, back in their countries and what they must think of America now.  

Having survived an abusive childhood – I was dedicated to the arts and grateful for the “shelter” I could find in my deep love / passion for the arts and my teachers, who’d encouraged my work. 

Dance was my first love – along with her twin – music. Then I discovered their sisters –  theater and cinema. Along with the support of my teachers, these ladies “saved my life.” 

Alone with my dreams, walking the pavement of NYC streets, afraid to go home on the subway until 

late at night, I learned my craft comforted by the shelter of dance classes with Broadway Pros, art house cinema screens, and haunting legacy of timeless masterpieces echoing from the halls of every Manhattan museum and library.

My teachers were angels + allies in my “dreams come true” and thanks to them, and to my love – I won scholarships, was skipped grades and offered a scholarship to NYU where I earned my Masters’ Degree at a very young age.  

One of my report cards described me as a “runaway imagination” and of course, I imagined my imagination running away and I myself became a “runaway with a scholarship.”

I caught a wave + scraped together my “half a shoestring” budget, built my tiny “green” grassroots, up-cycled, recycled, mostly “off the grid” floating film + music Tiny SurfLoft On The Water in Venice Beach, hand-picked my team + went to work !

I had saved up lemonade-stand, babysitting, yoga teacher + acting gig earnings and my hand-built studio and methodologies as a matter of following a course I had set, upon navigating my way from graduating with a Master’s Degree at an impossibly young age. There was a virtual drummer playing an indigenous soundtrack to my life and — I was listening and following the steps. The ocean was an important core for me and I had dedicated my artistry toward creating my own style of “AquaCulture.

I likened it to building a “an oyster-pearl-farm” and my projects would encourage audiences to “sip the oyster savour the pearls .”©

My projects are :

HandMade 2 Make A Difference with ToyBoxTechnology ™ ” 

Riding the subways alone at too young an age, doing all I could not to go home – I found myself “living at” all my dance classes in private studios on additional dance scholarships, then “living at” the museums and libraries of NYC – kept me busy, along with part-time babysitting and other jobs to pay for anything scholarships didn’t cover. 

So …  I just …  – never had time – to explore / learn about my own sexuality.

By the time I did learn about it – I was married to my much older male partner, and then BOOM – one day – I FELL —  in love with a girl. 

It felt CRAZY –  

But it was also – BEYOND GREAT !

The LOVE I had for dance, and the arts – had now come full circle into bloom. 

I was blooming

My amazing male partner – reflected this too. He said – you are more YOU now. 

I had a lot of figuring out to do.

First — I had to figure out – WHY – did I feel as though I was SUPPOSED to be upset?

I DID agonize about –

feel GUILTY about it —

but I HAD to ask – WHY?

That’s when it came to me – the title of one of the soundtrack songs + a work of art I released with the project :

“We Don’t Fall in Love, We Rise ™”

Little did I know how many times I would repeat that to myself + others.

We had a lot of figuring out to do. Luckily – I was and am still – married to an amazing human being. 

Well, of course – I was growing up – growing into Me

Along with this personal growth, came my awareness of what was happening in the 21st Century world at large. 

My personal anguish into ecstasy and my growing deep concerns for the future of Humanity / Mother Earth as an “Endangered Species” became so agonizing –  that my only way to deal with anxieties about what I saw happening to this planet in the 21st Century while I was literally “blooming” personally – was to speak up and speak out – doing what I do best. 

Suddenly I KNEW that there were people who were experiencing the same “awakenings” about their sexuality but who were living in repressive cultures – and I wanted to reach out to them – to hear THEIR stories – and tell them it would be ok – share my experiences with them –  when I first began visualizing this project in 2010.

In 2012 – I turned down three lucrative acting gigs in a row, because I felt they were degrading to women and to the arts in general. I decided that I would respond to “MeToo” experiences and the “toxic media culture” of the entertainment industry – by taking responsibility and “becoming the change I wished to see” as the saying goes. My teachers had believed in me – and I owed it to them, to that little girl who survived that childhood – and to the arts which gave me oxygen – to do my very best and not settle for just a paying gig to portray yet another “blonde.” 

Although part of my anguish about the LGBTQ community was brought on by learning about the story of Brittany Cosby and Crystal Jackson, as well as Matthew Wayne Shepard – to whom the movie is dedicated on-screen … — never did I imagine, of course, that we’d be here today in 2019. 

So many of my posts regarding this project were aimed at persons who lived in other ( more repressive ) cultures and dictatorships. 

And here we are, ladies and gentlemen. 

Here – we – are. 

2019

A ” Coming Out ” and a  “Coming In From The Cold.”  

I hoped to release a “healing balm” for the “global family” –  at the intersections of LGBTQIA communities and my growing concerns for inter-related social justice crises such as – reproductive rights / women’s rights, violence against LGBTQ and female communities, Indigenous People’s and Black Lives Matter and Climate Change / endangered species. 

As intended – this movie, soundtrack and everything my feMt0™studi0 has been working on since inception in 2012 has already reached selected but passionate audiences from Los Angeles to Lagos, Uganda to Agra, Mali, to Manhattan — 

My wish after graduating – was to create an international – inter-disciplinary – multi-gender – mixed orientation team – in order to reach domestic + global audiences, without the “Over-Lords” of corporate media, stifling the creativity my teachers had encouraged in me. 

Much to my surprise – I got a bit of that wish with the limited releases of this project and my first Youtube music video “Election Train”  leading up to the movie. I had taken some time from the creation of the movie – to make the music video in order to support Obama’s re-election. 

I am REALLY WISHING that with an acknowledgement from YOU — that this project can TRAVEL FARTHER – and reach MANY MORE people who might be comforted by it’s message of acceptance and LOVE IS LOVE – along with being entertained by the work itself

Creating high quality cinema and music – was of utmost importance along with the “message” of the story. Excellence and Craft is a must. 

I was very much aware of ‘composing’ + ‘designing’ along with screenplay-writing, directing, acting, along with rapping-singing+producing – so there’s definitely a ’21st-Century-Girl-rapper-rock-band‘ – aesthetic at work here . The wardrobe was a “meditation on mens-wear”© + I had imagined it could be a clothing line someday! This was also based on an exploration of “the male gaze” + “the white gaze.”

‘Culture is Nutrition meets Environment …’ ©

‘We Consume it + sometimes unwittingly, like the air we breathe, we consume by OSMOSIS …’©

Lovers of Movies + Music as well as – Free-speech a Free-Press, Journalism + uh – Basic Freedoms of Democracy might do the Culture + the Planet ( ourselves ) a favor – if we simply support an authentic indie artisanal “maker” like myself and my team.

I’m not against big budget films – I often love them!

And – I’d like to find more opportunities to work in them as an actress – because the current system is one big roadblock.

I just need a bit of “oxygen” – support from my community + from the Culture – to do what I do at my Sustainable femt0 ™studi0 : ” IndiGoGreen™ DreamBigTinyFootPrintZ™” we dream big + leave tiny footprints”©

Often , I liken my signature artisan-made process to “farm to table” + “Aquaculture.”

There’s a scene in Billy Wilder’s movie “Sabrina” where Audrey Hepburn as Sabrina , having been to the Sorbonne – is able to cobble together a feast – from just a few eggs + crackers + milk … – THAT’S my aesthetics

Yes I’m mixing metaphors when I say I’m allowing the “AquaCulturalZ™ Oyster-Pearls to “vine-ripen” + then when we release a project – I aim to “nourish” through “pictures words music in motion ™” encouraging Audiences to :

“sip the oysterZ savor the pearlZ ™ “©

Every day at my ocean studio – I send out RIPPLES on the water – wishing for love and peace in the world …

My most effective “Ripple” is this move, this album … –

I hope that your acknowledgement — will help this Ripple travel much farther than I can get it to go on my own … 

It’s funny how sometimes we have to do what GingerRogers described along the lines of “dancing Backwards In High Heels ” –  in order to move forward one step.

She takes her baby steps,
BackWardsInHighHeels “©

” and though she be but little, she is fierce ” – (Shakespeare ) 

this quote is invoked in one of my favorite true-life stories about the great ” seabiscuit ” –
a story warming my heart from the very beginning of this journey with my own movie –  Tiny Budgets + tiny teams – uphill climbs – hopes + dreams –

‘ She KNOWS
she’s the Dark Horse here –
but darkness
she doesn’t fear

+ Oh she loves to run…

My genuine aim is to:

” nourish ”  through

” Pictures

Words

Music In Motion ” ™

Bon Apetit !

“We Don’t Fall in Love,

We Rise ™ “©


Truli© Cali Lili

2019🏝️ interview :
https://medium.com/@mondofilm/interview-with-cali-lili-from-eve-n-god-this-female-is-not-yet-rated-6d50611b758e

2017 🏝️interview :
http://www.wearemovingstories.com/we-are-moving-stories-films/2017/6/21/eve-n-god-this-female-is-not-yet-rated

Post Script :

GirlTheWorld™

© Cali Lili ;

My process is based on my methodologies in my book ‘The Declaration Of IndiePenDance™’ where I explore my film-making+music-making approach – I call it c.lili™ ‘s CynAesthetiX™ and it includes a variety of innovations in cinematic+music aesthetics.

As a young actress who’s taken the time to respect the history / HERstory of my craft – from the craftspersons’ perspective – I know that ‘innovation’ rests upon the past + is a bridge to the future.

With My Sisters – For My Sisters : in my recent writings and explorations about feminism — I am finding it crucial for us to find out – not so much why men hurt women – but instead, why some women – hurt women –

including the fact that often, we women, hurt ourselves, it’s a vicious cycle – and by hurting our sisters, we are expressing our self hatred …

I explored this – but it was not until VERY recently that I fully understood the depth of how these incidents shape us from childhood, into our teenage years, school experiences and then –

importantly, as we enter the professional world and encounter the competitive forces from our sisters, which often lead women to do unspeakable things – things they write about and rail against as #feminists – but which they do to each other, sometimes unconsciously …

I completed my movie + album while continuing essays and posts about what I would come to call the “Gentrification of Culture ™ “© referring to the intellectual property theft and secret exclusionary behaviors in the most unlikely corners of Arts and Culture

As we know, our work as feminists – and feminism can be fragile, as the world is often cruel to women who speak out, we often need each other — a form of Stockholm-Syndrome style bond out of necessity … so now the “famous feminists” can become the new bullies, having internalized the misogyny — perpetuating the predatory abuse of power — which is why I don’t often avail myself of friendships that are based in “need” or which arise out of hardships like global misogyny …

But there is a bond among us sisters and I always hold a wishful hope that women / girls I encounter will understand the need for true friendship, genuine caring, listening to each other — behaving towards our sisters in ways we wish to be treated … Unfortunately though, I’m going to say it here, and elsewhere – we often miss that mark.

I’m sorry to have to say it, sorrier to have experienced it, but damnit – we need to do better with each other. “Mean Girl Culture Cool” is often invoked when women / girls are acting all “empowered” – but of course that’s just stupid and self-defeating. We must do better.

Sisters – we really must. I offer the project below – which is the first in a trilogy on the subject. This project was a gift I made with my sisters, for my sisters all over the world. We might have been the first AllFemaleCrew as a production team – but we were certainly among the very first ever and I am certain we were a catalyst.

The Project is not easy to pigeonhole – and that’s true to form. I never wanted to make a movie I’ve already seen anywhere else.

One could describe this movie as :

A meditation on ‘male-gaze’ – ‘white-gaze’ – ‘mens-wear’ + other ‘ISMs’….

Or

“A Not So Silent Scream ” ©

I’m still discovering it myself.

I offer it up and hope it reaches both Sisters and Brothers too

Together – we really must GirlTheWorld™ – this is why I made this project – I believe this is how “we shall over-come” our challenges – the ISMS – racism, sexism, homophobia and including climate denial.

I believe honoring the “Sacred Feminine” – the Female – the WomanKind on MotherEarth is the main component of Healing this BluePlanet – our WildLife our SeaLife and our Humanity ” © Cali Lili all rights reserved

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For Your Awards Consideration :

Best Actress

Best Actor

Best Director

Original Screenplay

Original Song

Best Picture

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Art is subjective and personal to a degree … but when it’s done well, it’s also #Universal


I believe that most of humanity is comprised of well-meaning human beings … sometimes ignorant of our foibles, prejudices, biases … etc … and when we step on somebody’s toes, willing to apologize good-naturedly, knowing that we have had our own toes stepped on …


As a multi-cultural minority in America, as a woke woman, a survivor of child abuse, as a member of the LGBTQ community, and as an artist, i make it my business to speak up, speak out whenever I feel injustice for any of my sisters and brothers and fellow creatures on this beautiful big blue planet of ours …


Having spent the last 3 years solidly working 24/7 at my diversity – based, recycled / upcycled tiny studio … making my civil rights, womens’ rights, lgbtq rights, climate rights – themed feature film and album … I have had limited time to become aware of accusations against others … so this is the first time I have become aware of the sexual harrassment allegations against Casey Affleck … and I would need to read much more to find out what was up with that … so … had I known about it … – that would absolutely have affected my reactions to his having won the Oscar last night …


A few years ago, in response to what I felt was a monstrous lack of opportunity for my work as an artist, in the mainstream “hollywood” environment … and after turning down several roles that I felt were degrading toward women, in projects, that in my gutt, I felt were basically perpetuating all the ills of this world such as racism and sexism … projects unworthy of what I could offer to the industry ( and unworthy of the education I worked so hard to attain and maintain ) … I decided to “be the change I wished to see” and scraped together literally pennies / half a shoestring budget and built my own tiny film and music studio in order to empower NOT ONLY myself as a multicultural female lgbt artist, but also … others … whom I hired and I supported on these projects …


I also built my tiny studio TO TELL STORIES about what I often refer to as “endangered communities” such as #Women, #Girls, Persons of Color #POC #WomenOfColor , Members of the #LGBTQ #Global Community and #Scientists ….


Along the way, I experienced some nasty ignorant responses from all kindsa directions … of course I have heard some nasty stuff from sexist / racist climate deniers …. but occasionally I have experienced a bitter coldness even from some in the African American community ( I am perceived as “white” / caucasian but I am an exotic multicultural mix … just happen to lean more toward the rose gold spectrum and have blonde hair … but it shouldn’t matter but it does I know .. I know .. ugh ) … and even from some Women … so … I get it … whenever one does anything unique … one can experience nasty stuff even from people for whom I made my feature film + album … literally as a love letter to their empowerment …


So …. I totally campaigned for #DenzelWashington to get #BestActor and #BestDirector … I mean THAT is what he IS.
This year, in my opinion, Denzel’s performance and his work as director were THE most #OUTSTANDING … and … after all, that is what is expressed as the intent of the #AcademyAward : “most outstanding” … not “best” … but yeah semantics can get us confused when they are confusing …


And again … I didn’t know of the accusations / lawsuit against Affleck … but also … is being accused of something now a sure-fire road to failure in the world ? If so … we would all be living in glass houses …
I was supposed to have seen “Moonlight” and “Manchester By The Sea” weeks ago but I’ve been in post-production on my film so I hadn’t seen Manchester or Moonlight till a few nights ago…


So … I gotta say… Moonlight is in my heart for obvious reasons … bc it is about my struggle too … it’s universal … but also bc it’s got some pointed similarities with the film my team and I have made eVe N’god™ this female is not yet rated™ https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ybFeysEAHtk&feature=youtu.be a semi-autobiographical #interracial lgbt love story based (partly) on my relationship with my ex-girlfriend who happens to be black … among other themes in the film …
The Oscar for Moonlight represents the potential for projects like mine, to gain acceptance.


However …
I also saw Manchester the other day and … as an actor / writer/ director and movie lover … I’ve GOT to say Afflecks performance and Manchester as a film… especially Kenneth Lonergan’s writing and his direction too, for me…these are solid works …subtle, less overtly epic… but powerful nonetheless …. and worthy of that Oscar in my opinion.
So … last night i found myself in some weird #Twitter exchange w #KamauBell ( a #comedian) … it was about his commenting that there should be a reversal of Affleck’s Best Actor award … and it reminded me of the apologizing #Adele did at the #Grammys … and then the brilliant quip from #TrevorNoah about the fact that Adele “ Kanye’d herself” … LOL
So now Affleck should have his Oscar removed ?
In light of the insanity we have just experienced in the Election … which SHOULD be reversed and restored to sanity ….


In light of the highly #Misogynist attacks on #HillaryClinton and the racism aimed at the Obamas for the past years … and I mean, those attacks also originated from within certain members of the #Democratic party … and in light of where that division and misogyny have landed us and the world …
In light of that … I feel we must be FAR MORE RESPONSIBLE with our public words … and far more respectful toward each other. I include myself in this … I am and will continue to be far more thoughtful and less reactive to what I see / hear … bc anger is only useful when it’s put to good use … guided by our “higher angels”
I worry a lot about those who would divide us for personal gain.
Where does the race baiting end? …. I feel we are all being played … like the mideast or something… as tho it’s ok for ANYBODY to discredit an artist’s work due to the color of their skin …


Whenever there is an artistic “competition” which is a weird concept to begin with … I mean, how do you compare two films anyway … that’s tricky …. and if people knew how difficult it is to make ANY film, they might be slower to attempt to destroy people’s careers …


There are many more examples of controversial Oscar wins … and Grammy wins and …. and … and …. 


and …


… if anything … it’s more about MONEY / Backing / PR … and that is a whole mess of deals being made on every level including at the level of Film Festivals … yeah it HAS been rigged for a long time in favor of white, male, conservative … you name it … YEAH it’s fucking HARD out here …
But where do these militant “tribal” attacks get us?


The point is that culture and art are both subjective and ALSO… universal…
When #art and #artists are attacked for political or tribal purpose …
Well… That… Is an attack on all art and every artist …


Then we are down an even more slippery slope …


I advocate that we stop labelling each other in that twitter happy 140 character slam dunk that our followers fist bump so fast, without knowing the context.


And Context MATTERS.


I advocate that in this extremely difficult time in history and #herstory … we speak up respectfully, forcefully, even angrily …


but that we ALSO LISTEN and think, and feel, not only for ourselves, but for each other.


Because I too, am the other, and so are you.


© Cali Lili ™
Cali Lili Indies™


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Thanks 4 inquiries about my upcoming releases!
As you may know, I set out a few years ago to make my Indie Feature Film and Full length album, which are ABOUT Diversity,
AT my FIERCELY INDIE Upcycled, Recycled Sustainable, and Green Film and Music Studio … which was built from SCRATCH with upcycled and recycled materials and which honors the Ocean environment on which it stands … I wanted to MAKE my projects with a Diverse Team AND I wanted to be FREE from Corporate Overlords.
It took me a sec, with a whole lotta help from my team, but I can proudly say, we ARE in our final stages of POST Production as the mostly edited film has been awaiting her music, and the album is damn near complete.
This is the first of many in the pipeline of my now thriving FeMtO™StudiO … I woke up a few thoughts about the Oscars controversy and … those led me to meditate on a topic I’ve explored and will continue to explore as one of my personal challenges … I was faced with this challenge very early on in life bc I knew that I was born to make art from the moment I became aware of my existence … unfortunately, raising myself in abusive circumstances made these challenges far more challenging and I’ve been steadily climbing the hill for a long time now … below, I’m including the essay we’ll be posting today … in hopes it may resonate … and I’m sending out a big HUGG to my team and to all of YOU who are supporting my work … it really means the world … Indie Artists Are Endangered Species
©CaliLili™
Artist = #EndangeredSpecies #RacingXtinction #StartWith1Thing
#Oscars ©Cali Lili™

Dear Friends

It’s no joke,

Indie Artists, especially Females + Persons Of Color and or So Called “Alternative Cultural / Sexual Preference / Lifestyle / Gender Orientation” ARE an Endangered Species.

Everybody knows the story of now famous painter Vincent VanGogh who lived in poverty, cut his own ear off in desperation, and who’s paintings after death, made gazillions of cash, generating it’s own industry.

I’m advocating that our cultures directly keep artists working while we are alive. (ctd)

#racingextinction #startwith1t

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#Oscars #Diversity #Actress #FemaleDirector #LGBT

Thanks 4 inquiries about my upcoming releases!
As you may know, I set out a few years ago to make my Indie Feature Film and Full length album, which are ABOUT Diversity,
AT my FIERCELY INDIE Upcycled, Recycled Sustainable, and Green Film and Music Studio … which was built from SCRATCH with upcycled and recycled materials and which honors the Ocean environment on which it stands … I wanted to MAKE my projects with a Diverse Team AND I wanted to be FREE from Corporate Overlords.
It took me a sec, with a whole lotta help from my team, but I can proudly say, we ARE in our final stages of POST Production as the mostly edited film has been awaiting her music, and the album is damn near complete.
This is the first of many in the pipeline of my now thriving FeMtO™StudiO … I woke up a few thoughts about the Oscars controversy and … those led me to meditate on a topic I’ve explored and will continue to explore as one of my personal challenges … I was faced with this challenge very early on in life bc I knew that I was born to make art from the moment I became aware of my existence … unfortunately, raising myself in abusive circumstances made these challenges far more challenging and I’ve been steadily climbing the hill for a long time now … below, I’m including the essay we’ll be posting today … in hopes it may resonate … and I’m sending out a big HUGG to my team and to all of YOU who are supporting my work … it really means the world … Indie Artists Are Endangered Species
©CaliLili™
Artist = #EndangeredSpecies #RacingXtinction #StartWith1Thing
#Oscars ©Cali Lili™

Dear Friends

It’s no joke,

Indie Artists, especially Females + Persons Of Color and or So Called “Alternative Cultural / Sexual Preference / Lifestyle / Gender Orientation” ARE an Endangered Species.

Everybody knows the story of now famous painter Vincent VanGogh who lived in poverty, cut his own ear off in desperation, and who’s paintings after death, made gazillions of cash, generating it’s own industry.

I’m advocating that our cultures directly keep artists working while we are alive. (ctd)

#racingextinction #startwith1t

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A video posted by Cali Lili™ (@calililiindies) on Feb 28, 2016 at 11:47am PST

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#Oscars #Diversity #Actress #FemaleDirector #LGBT

Thanks 4 inquiries about my upcoming releases!
As you may know, I set out a few years ago to make my Indie Feature Film and Full length album, which are ABOUT Diversity,
AT my FIERCELY INDIE Upcycled, Recycled Sustainable, and Green Film and Music Studio … which was built from SCRATCH with upcycled and recycled materials and which honors the Ocean environment on which it stands … I wanted to MAKE my projects with a Diverse Team AND I wanted to be FREE from Corporate Overlords.
It took me a sec, with a whole lotta help from my team, but I can proudly say, we ARE in our final stages of POST Production as the mostly edited film has been awaiting her music, and the album is damn near complete.
This is the first of many in the pipeline of my now thriving FeMtO™StudiO … I woke up a few thoughts about the Oscars controversy and … those led me to meditate on a topic I’ve explored and will continue to explore as one of my personal challenges … I was faced with this challenge very early on in life bc I knew that I was born to make art from the moment I became aware of my existence … unfortunately, raising myself in abusive circumstances made these challenges far more challenging and I’ve been steadily climbing the hill for a long time now … below, I’m including the essay we’ll be posting today … in hopes it may resonate … and I’m sending out a big HUGG to my team and to all of YOU who are supporting my work … it really means the world … Indie Artists Are Endangered Species
©CaliLili™
Artist = #EndangeredSpecies #RacingXtinction #StartWith1Thing
#Oscars ©Cali Lili™

Dear Friends

It’s no joke,

Indie Artists, especially Females + Persons Of Color and or So Called “Alternative Cultural / Sexual Preference / Lifestyle / Gender Orientation” ARE an Endangered Species.

Everybody knows the story of now famous painter Vincent VanGogh who lived in poverty, cut his own ear off in desperation, and who’s paintings after death, made gazillions of cash, generating it’s own industry.

I’m advocating that our cultures directly keep artists working while we are alive. (ctd)

#racingextinction #startwith1thing

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A video posted by Cali Lili™ (@calililiindies) on Feb 28, 2016 at 11:47am PST

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#Oscars #Diversity #Actress #FemaleDirector #LGBT

Thanks 4 inquiries about my upcoming releases!
As you may know, I set out a few years ago to make my Indie Feature Film and Full length album, which are ABOUT Diversity,
AT my FIERCELY INDIE Upcycled, Recycled Sustainable, and Green Film and Music Studio … which was built from SCRATCH with upcycled and recycled materials and which honors the Ocean environment on which it stands … I wanted to MAKE my projects with a Diverse Team AND I wanted to be FREE from Corporate Overlords.
It took me a sec, with a whole lotta help from my team, but I can proudly say, we ARE in our final stages of POST Production as the mostly edited film has been awaiting her music, and the album is damn near complete.
This is the first of many in the pipeline of my now thriving FeMtO™StudiO … I woke up a few thoughts about the Oscars controversy and … those led me to meditate on a topic I’ve explored and will continue to explore as one of my personal challenges … I was faced with this challenge very early on in life bc I knew that I was born to make art from the moment I became aware of my existence … unfortunately, raising myself in abusive circumstances made these challenges far more challenging and I’ve been steadily climbing the hill for a long time now … below, I’m including the essay we’ll be posting today … in hopes it may resonate … and I’m sending out a big HUGG to my team and to all of YOU who are supporting my work … it really means the world … Indie Artists Are Endangered Species
©CaliLili™
Artist = #EndangeredSpecies #RacingXtinction #StartWith1Thing
#Oscars ©Cali Lili™

Dear Friends

It’s no joke,

Indie Artists, especially Females + Persons Of Color and or So Called “Alternative Cultural / Sexual Preference / Lifestyle / Gender Orientation” ARE an Endangered Species.

Everybody knows the story of now famous painter Vincent VanGogh who lived in poverty, cut his own ear off in desperation, and who’s paintings after death, made gazillions of cash, generating it’s own industry.

I’m advocating that our cultures directly keep artists working while we are alive.

Many dangers (ctd)
#racingextinction

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A video posted by Cali Lili™ (@calililiindies) on Feb 28, 2016 at 11:47am PST

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#Oscars #Diversity #Actress #FemaleDirector #LGBT

Thanks 4 inquiries about my upcoming releases!

As you may know, I set out a few years ago to make my Indie Feature Film and Full length album, which are ABOUT Diversity,

AT my FIERCELY INDIE Upcycled, Recycled Sustainable, and Green Film and Music Studio …

which was built from SCRATCH with upcycled and recycled materials and which honors the Ocean environment on which it stands …

I wanted to MAKE my projects with a Diverse Team AND I wanted to be FREE from Corporate Overlords.

It took me a sec, with a whole lotta help from my team, but I can proudly say, we ARE in our final stages of POST Production as the mostly edited film has been awaiting her music, and the album is damn near complete.

This is the first of many in the pipeline of my now thriving FeMtO™StudiO …

I woke up a few thoughts about the Oscars controversy and … those led me to meditate on a topic I’ve explored and will continue to explore as one of my personal challenges …

I was faced with this challenge very early on in life bc I knew that I was born to make art from the moment I became aware of my existence …

unfortunately, raising myself in abusive circumstances made these challenges far more challenging and I’ve been steadily climbing the hill for a long time now …

below, I’m including the essay we’ll be posting today … in hopes it may resonate … and I’m sending out a big HUGG to my team and to all of YOU who are supporting my work … it really means the world …

Indie Artists Are Endangered Species
©CaliLili™

Artist = #EndangeredSpecies #RacingXtinction #StartWith1Thing
#Oscars

©Cali Lili™

Dear Friends

It’s no joke,

Indie Artists, especially Females + Persons Of Color and or So Called “Alternative Cultural / Sexual Preference / Lifestyle / Gender Orientation” ARE an Endangered Species.

Everybody knows the story of now famous painter Vincent VanGogh who lived in poverty, cut his own ear off in desperation, and who’s paintings after death, made gazillions of cash, generating it’s own industry.

I’m advocating that our cultures directly keep artists working while we are alive.

Many dangers are faced